Pregnancy crazies

Dec 04, 2012

I am going nuts. I can't stand it. First and foremost, the number one reason I set out to have this surgery is so I can be as healthy as I possibly can and live a full, happy, healthy life with my husband. Second? We want kids so badly. And what do I see when I get online yesterday? Princess Kate is pregnant. My friend Shelley is pregnant, a good friend from high school? Pregnant. My best friend calls me today and lets me listen to my beautiful 4 month old "nephew" coo and "talk".

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 

I have known since I was 12 years old that I wanted to be a Mom when I was older. It might sound a little Leave it to Beaver but I want to be June. 2 kids, husband, dinner on the table. And all these people are out and getting pregnant. I know that it is not a race. GB and I will get to that point in the future when I am as healthy as I can be. But until then? I am so jealous. I hate admitting that. But I can't tell my friends that I am green with envy over their news. Cause I AM happy for them. I AM excited for them. But I am so totally jealous of them. 

In a moment of complete stupidity earlier this year, GB and I stopped my b.c. and just kept on lovin' without anything to prevent pregnancy. However, you don't get pregnant if you don't get your period and don't ovulate. So, fast forward, and here we are at the end of the year, 11 months after stopping my b.c, and one month post-op. This time we're going to do it right. 

I'm making an appointment with the gyno. to get on b.c. as soon as I finish my blood thinner shots that I got sent home on from the hospital. And when I am at a healthy weight that I have been able to attain and my surgeon and NP gives me the go ahead, then we'll start trying! 

Until that time comes, I am putting forth all my baby crazy into making great grades on my finals, making better grades next semester, and working as hard as I can to drop this excess weight. And of course, keep lovin' on my super awesome dude! (Yeah, I give him props every post, but he totally deserves it so bear with me)

Trying to keep myself in check-

Kendra

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