kikislove2
DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?
May 03, 2011
I am at a crossroads with myself. I guess I'm a little confused, because here I am, have been given this wonderful gift, and finally getting the weight off. I am reaching goals that I could never reach on my own. So why am I always depressed when it is time for me to eat something. I still do not suffer from hunger pains. I don't recall my stomach growling since I've had surgery. But when I'm at a gathering where there is food, or whether I'm just fixing something at home, I get angry because I cannot eat the way I want to eat. I actually want to take big bites of chicken, or whatever it is that is in front of me. I have not overeaten or messed up on my plan. My portions are very small, and my choices are healthy, but I get frustrated with that. I had some grilled chicken, from a Bar B Q, and that was the first piece of Bar B Q I've had since last summer. There was no sauce, so it was safe. But it was seasoned soooooo good, so what did I do? I became frustrated and stuffed a nice hefty piece in my mouth. Guess what happened after that? Boy, it wasn't pretty. I don't know how I will get past this "wanting" to stuff myself phase. I've overeaten all of my life, so the surgery does not take away the urge to stuff your face. Lord help me. Maybe I need to talk to my therapist, and pray.
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BMI
Surgery
03/23/2011
Surgery Date
Mar 04, 2011
Member Since
Before & After
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324 lbslbs
230 lbslbs
