I am on vacation -- so does it count if you use someone elses digital scale and it says 199!!!!!!  Yippee, I am taking it!  I had my body wrap and I have to say it works.  I lost 18 inches and 2 lbs AND, I went shopping and I fit into 16 pants and 14 tops! Extra Yippee there!  I am extremely excited.  Tomorrow I take the kiddo's to New Orleans for the day.  I hope they like it.  NO is such a beautiful crazy city.  Well gotta go!  Take care and God Bless you all!

Ok, this week was a good week for me but there are still a few things that came up.  I am now at 202 lbs and that is 58 lbs lost so far.  My three month surgiversary was this week.  Not too bad from all I have read.  I see my surgeon at the end of this month so I'll know more then about my nutrition and vitamins if all that is working right. 

So, I am having some issues with the people response to my weight loss.  I do like that people notice, but it's really embarrassing for me.  I am not sure what to say -- over and over again.  I almost just want to say, "Yeah, I know, I've lost weight.  Now, let's get to the other stuff" -- I am still me.  That hasn't changed to a greater extent, yet.  I mean I do expect I will change throughout this process.  I don't believe that I will still be the "same ole me" when I reach my goal.  This whole experience is a life changing event but I still am not used to having all this attention.  I guess that is what makes me uncomfortable.  The ATTENTION.  For me, the weight was a shield to keep others away or from getting too close to me.  Now my shield is slipping and I am having a difficult time adjusting.  I guess that is where I will have to work with the shrinkage to figure out my new coping skills with all of that.

Speaking of the shrinkage, I had my 2nd appointment with him.  I had the opposite problem with him.  He forgot who I was and that we met before.  How's that for self esteem?  My own shrink didn't remember me!  It's ok -- we did have a good session but I was bummed because we had hit on so many topics in our first session that I really wanted to talk about in our second session but then it ended up me going over some of the same stuff from that first session.  Oh well!  I figure there is a reason for everything and maybe that needed to happen.  We'll see how it goes next time. 

Couple of other highlights -- I did go shopping last weekend and I have to say, I love how beautiful the clothes are in regular sizes!  I can't fit into them yet but I did manage to get a size 16 over my butt!  I did find a pretty dress for a wedding coming up.  I can't believe I am going to wear a dress!  Normally dresses look like tents on me!  I really tried to find things that I normally wouldn't wear.  It worked.  And, today I am going for my first body wrap at the spa!  I don't care about the losing inches part so much as I care about having my skin be more elastic so that as I am shrinking my skin doesn't sag as much.  I am extremely nervous getting almost naked in front of a practical stranger.  I am one of those that covers up and never changes in a locker room!  We'll see how I do.  I'll let you know if they work too.  Anyhoo, better go!  God bless and keep losing out there! 

I had to go to California this week and it was a great trip.  This was my first big one since my surgery.  I am now at 205 lbs and am heading quick to Onderland!  So here were the highlights for me:

1)  Airline seat belts fit comfortably and I could even cinch them in tighter!
2)  Airline tray table could come down and have room between it and my stomach!
3)  Walking through the airport wasn't a big deal
4)  I could wear high heels all day and night without swelling and feeling lot of pain
5)  I had fun dressing up and putting on jewelry
6)  I had more men help me with my bags and smile at me then I knew what to do with
7)  I had no problems finding food and eating right -- being on the coast with all that wonderful seafood helped
8)  A couple of the folks I went to see didn't recognize me
9)  My bag seemed lighter with smaller clothing in it
10) I lost 2.5 lbs while i was gone! 

The men attention is a little disconcerting I have to admit.  I am so used to being invisible and to now receive offers of assistance and smiles is a bit weird.  I am challenging all of my guy friends to make a point of not ignoring overweight or obese women and give them the same courtesy they would give to any other woman.  I really did love the fact that I didn't have to worry about the seat belt and tray table.  That always sucked eggs.  I did eat a couple of bites from the snacks -- a pretzel and something else but did check the carbs prior to make sure I didn't surpass my allotted 5 grams.  They did taste pretty good so not anything I will make a habit of.  I did not get the exercise like I wanted to but I did fly to Sacramento on Sunday, then LA on Tuesday and coming home on Thursday.  Trekking through airports and offices was a pretty decent amount of walking but I need to get my butt in gear.  All in all, pretty good week!  Hope yours was good too!  God bless you!

So, the shrinkage is pretty cool.  I have to say that i like him.  He was extremely perceptive -- I almost thought he was a mind reader -- which means that he won't put up with my BS and we can get to the root of problem.  Lord knows I need someone to pull me along especially since i have a hard time speaking about what bothers me.  After next week, I'll go see him every week for two months and then we'll re-evaluate.  He also picked up on my OCD tendencies.....man, I must be so transparent!  Anyway, good guy and I think we'll mesh.  So as Charlie Sheen would say, "It's on" -- don't get me started on the Charlie Sheen sh%$t!!!  And, I think I have issues........Hope all is well in your world.  God bless.

Well, I officially weigh 209 -- that is 51 lbs gone and I am now at my lowest weight in 17 years.  I am starting to realize just how much of a sheild my weight has been.  I am now down in 18's and 1x from 22/24 and 3x.  I cannot find clothes that I like to save my life -- of course, I wont try anything on that isnt on sale since I don't plan to be this size for long.  I start the shrink today.  Hopefully I will like him.  I liked his bio.  We'll see.....keeping my strength with God and not trying to be too much of a nut job!  God bless you, more later.....