Kelly B.
Onderland! YIPPEE!
Mar 21, 2011
I am on vacation -- so does it count if you use someone elses digital scale and it says 199!!!!!! Yippee, I am taking it! I had my body wrap and I have to say it works. I lost 18 inches and 2 lbs AND, I went shopping and I fit into 16 pants and 14 tops! Extra Yippee there! I am extremely excited. Tomorrow I take the kiddo's to New Orleans for the day. I hope they like it. NO is such a beautiful crazy city. Well gotta go! Take care and God Bless you all!
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Me, my weight, and I
Mar 18, 2011
Ok, this week was a good week for me but there are still a few things that came up. I am now at 202 lbs and that is 58 lbs lost so far. My three month surgiversary was this week. Not too bad from all I have read. I see my surgeon at the end of this month so I'll know more then about my nutrition and vitamins if all that is working right.
So, I am having some issues with the people response to my weight loss. I do like that people notice, but it's really embarrassing for me. I am not sure what to say -- over and over again. I almost just want to say, "Yeah, I know, I've lost weight. Now, let's get to the other stuff" -- I am still me. That hasn't changed to a greater extent, yet. I mean I do expect I will change throughout this process. I don't believe that I will still be the "same ole me" when I reach my goal. This whole experience is a life changing event but I still am not used to having all this attention. I guess that is what makes me uncomfortable. The ATTENTION. For me, the weight was a shield to keep others away or from getting too close to me. Now my shield is slipping and I am having a difficult time adjusting. I guess that is where I will have to work with the shrinkage to figure out my new coping skills with all of that.
Speaking of the shrinkage, I had my 2nd appointment with him. I had the opposite problem with him. He forgot who I was and that we met before. How's that for self esteem? My own shrink didn't remember me! It's ok -- we did have a good session but I was bummed because we had hit on so many topics in our first session that I really wanted to talk about in our second session but then it ended up me going over some of the same stuff from that first session. Oh well! I figure there is a reason for everything and maybe that needed to happen. We'll see how it goes next time.
Couple of other highlights -- I did go shopping last weekend and I have to say, I love how beautiful the clothes are in regular sizes! I can't fit into them yet but I did manage to get a size 16 over my butt! I did find a pretty dress for a wedding coming up. I can't believe I am going to wear a dress! Normally dresses look like tents on me! I really tried to find things that I normally wouldn't wear. It worked. And, today I am going for my first body wrap at the spa! I don't care about the losing inches part so much as I care about having my skin be more elastic so that as I am shrinking my skin doesn't sag as much. I am extremely nervous getting almost naked in front of a practical stranger. I am one of those that covers up and never changes in a locker room! We'll see how I do. I'll let you know if they work too. Anyhoo, better go! God bless and keep losing out there!
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So, I am having some issues with the people response to my weight loss. I do like that people notice, but it's really embarrassing for me. I am not sure what to say -- over and over again. I almost just want to say, "Yeah, I know, I've lost weight. Now, let's get to the other stuff" -- I am still me. That hasn't changed to a greater extent, yet. I mean I do expect I will change throughout this process. I don't believe that I will still be the "same ole me" when I reach my goal. This whole experience is a life changing event but I still am not used to having all this attention. I guess that is what makes me uncomfortable. The ATTENTION. For me, the weight was a shield to keep others away or from getting too close to me. Now my shield is slipping and I am having a difficult time adjusting. I guess that is where I will have to work with the shrinkage to figure out my new coping skills with all of that.
Speaking of the shrinkage, I had my 2nd appointment with him. I had the opposite problem with him. He forgot who I was and that we met before. How's that for self esteem? My own shrink didn't remember me! It's ok -- we did have a good session but I was bummed because we had hit on so many topics in our first session that I really wanted to talk about in our second session but then it ended up me going over some of the same stuff from that first session. Oh well! I figure there is a reason for everything and maybe that needed to happen. We'll see how it goes next time.
Couple of other highlights -- I did go shopping last weekend and I have to say, I love how beautiful the clothes are in regular sizes! I can't fit into them yet but I did manage to get a size 16 over my butt! I did find a pretty dress for a wedding coming up. I can't believe I am going to wear a dress! Normally dresses look like tents on me! I really tried to find things that I normally wouldn't wear. It worked. And, today I am going for my first body wrap at the spa! I don't care about the losing inches part so much as I care about having my skin be more elastic so that as I am shrinking my skin doesn't sag as much. I am extremely nervous getting almost naked in front of a practical stranger. I am one of those that covers up and never changes in a locker room! We'll see how I do. I'll let you know if they work too. Anyhoo, better go! God bless and keep losing out there!
Home from California
Mar 11, 2011
I had to go to California this week and it was a great trip. This was my first big one since my surgery. I am now at 205 lbs and am heading quick to Onderland! So here were the highlights for me:
1) Airline seat belts fit comfortably and I could even cinch them in tighter!
2) Airline tray table could come down and have room between it and my stomach!
3) Walking through the airport wasn't a big deal
4) I could wear high heels all day and night without swelling and feeling lot of pain
5) I had fun dressing up and putting on jewelry
6) I had more men help me with my bags and smile at me then I knew what to do with
7) I had no problems finding food and eating right -- being on the coast with all that wonderful seafood helped
8) A couple of the folks I went to see didn't recognize me
9) My bag seemed lighter with smaller clothing in it
10) I lost 2.5 lbs while i was gone!
The men attention is a little disconcerting I have to admit. I am so used to being invisible and to now receive offers of assistance and smiles is a bit weird. I am challenging all of my guy friends to make a point of not ignoring overweight or obese women and give them the same courtesy they would give to any other woman. I really did love the fact that I didn't have to worry about the seat belt and tray table. That always sucked eggs. I did eat a couple of bites from the snacks -- a pretzel and something else but did check the carbs prior to make sure I didn't surpass my allotted 5 grams. They did taste pretty good so not anything I will make a habit of. I did not get the exercise like I wanted to but I did fly to Sacramento on Sunday, then LA on Tuesday and coming home on Thursday. Trekking through airports and offices was a pretty decent amount of walking but I need to get my butt in gear. All in all, pretty good week! Hope yours was good too! God bless you!
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1) Airline seat belts fit comfortably and I could even cinch them in tighter!
2) Airline tray table could come down and have room between it and my stomach!
3) Walking through the airport wasn't a big deal
4) I could wear high heels all day and night without swelling and feeling lot of pain
5) I had fun dressing up and putting on jewelry
6) I had more men help me with my bags and smile at me then I knew what to do with
7) I had no problems finding food and eating right -- being on the coast with all that wonderful seafood helped
8) A couple of the folks I went to see didn't recognize me
9) My bag seemed lighter with smaller clothing in it
10) I lost 2.5 lbs while i was gone!
The men attention is a little disconcerting I have to admit. I am so used to being invisible and to now receive offers of assistance and smiles is a bit weird. I am challenging all of my guy friends to make a point of not ignoring overweight or obese women and give them the same courtesy they would give to any other woman. I really did love the fact that I didn't have to worry about the seat belt and tray table. That always sucked eggs. I did eat a couple of bites from the snacks -- a pretzel and something else but did check the carbs prior to make sure I didn't surpass my allotted 5 grams. They did taste pretty good so not anything I will make a habit of. I did not get the exercise like I wanted to but I did fly to Sacramento on Sunday, then LA on Tuesday and coming home on Thursday. Trekking through airports and offices was a pretty decent amount of walking but I need to get my butt in gear. All in all, pretty good week! Hope yours was good too! God bless you!
Met the shrink for this first time.....
Mar 04, 2011
So, the shrinkage is pretty cool. I have to say that i like him. He was extremely perceptive -- I almost thought he was a mind reader -- which means that he won't put up with my BS and we can get to the root of problem. Lord knows I need someone to pull me along especially since i have a hard time speaking about what bothers me. After next week, I'll go see him every week for two months and then we'll re-evaluate. He also picked up on my OCD tendencies.....man, I must be so transparent! Anyway, good guy and I think we'll mesh. So as Charlie Sheen would say, "It's on" -- don't get me started on the Charlie Sheen sh%$t!!! And, I think I have issues........Hope all is well in your world. God bless.
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Reached a goal....
Mar 03, 2011
Well, I officially weigh 209 -- that is 51 lbs gone and I am now at my lowest weight in 17 years. I am starting to realize just how much of a sheild my weight has been. I am now down in 18's and 1x from 22/24 and 3x. I cannot find clothes that I like to save my life -- of course, I wont try anything on that isnt on sale since I don't plan to be this size for long. I start the shrink today. Hopefully I will like him. I liked his bio. We'll see.....keeping my strength with God and not trying to be too much of a nut job! God bless you, more later.....
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