TGCIO!!

Jan 05, 2013

Thank God Christmas is over!  Well, almost anyway...it's January 5 and we still have one more family thing to do.  But it's a small bit of people...my family and we can have a decent lowfat high protein meal with out all the crap.  My family is not big into the crap and is satisfied with whatever I put out.   I'll do steamed shrimp and cocktail sauce...veggie & dip (made with nonfat greek yogurt)...sauteed spinach with feta, chicken, and steamed carrots.  I'll also make some brown rice risotto for the gang ...that will not be for me! 

So Christmas I was up 2 pounds for a week!  what a waste!  I had to fight that one off...damned cookies.  BUt after my son and his friends were here, most of them disappeared and whatever is left, gets thrown out.  They're stale now, right!?  I was proud of myself that I got right back on my plan and went to the gym and did my exercises plus walked the dog out in the cold...DOWN and UP the big hill!  What a great feeling....I would never have done that BEFORE....if I did, it was aversive conditioning....I would feel so bad and so worn out that I wouldn't attempt it again for a long long time.  BUt, this was excellent....actually I think the dog was more tired than me!

I will cook so I can be in control I like control and food issues make me crazy if I'm not.  I've had a bad time the last two weeks....well, not bad all around...but a few days I felt like grazing and thank GOD!  I got sick! both times...DUH slow learner or what?  I was thinking, hmmm...too bad I don't dump from this chocolate (I went outside of my little square of 86% that I eat every day....I ate some crappy candy (well, good quality but uber sweet) and didn't dump...but thankfully being a little stupid and bored, I ate some other stuff and BARFED.  so....it made the association with the candy a strong one....revulsions!  Thank God for little favors.

I am feeling so good most of the time...a few things really pissed me off and I'll blog them here.  Lisa, if for some reason you can read this, well fine.  You deserve it.  You hurt my feelings...well, your obvious lack of tact and normal human emotion pissed me off....CaroleAnn stood right there and commented on my 75 POUNDS of weight loss...and you said nothing.  Fine. Be a princess.  I haven't seen this person in how long and can't say one thing?  I don't care really...it's just the way she is....but not to say anything??? geez.  It's okay that others (including me) compliment you...but nothing?  Well, she's not the only one who didn't say anything...but who cares?  Maryanne didn't say anything either....always Denise notices and compliments me...I don't really care about the actual complimenting, but noticing is 1. a nice thing to do to acknowledge someone's major life changes and hard work and 2. gives much needed support.  I know I am doing great and I don't need anyone to tell me that, but it sure doesn't hurt to hear it.  Sometimes I get annoyed by the ones who say too much...and call me Miss Skinny and Skinny Butt etc.  That gets old.  But, just knowing that I am doing well is what I need...and feeling strong and  healthy.  That's what is important.

Screw 'em all if they're jealous.

and bitchy.

Screw 'em!

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