Lisa H.

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7-08-04
Hey it has been a while. Well I went to the dentist on that monday and had my tooth pulled, no broken jaw (thank God!), they put a special jell in the hole to help it clot and put a couple of stitches. I could start my coumadin again the next day. 
My daughter left for Creation on the same day (its christian woodstock). Then I packed and me and my son and my niece went down the shore that night. I thought we would only be staying for a couple of days, 3 at the most. Well I ended up staying till last night. Over 2 weeks. I ate alot of stuff I shouldn't have, cookies and chips. But I ate alot of good protein too. I just felt like I could eat so much more and my mom loves to cook. I think I was making up for not being able to eat for like almost 4 weeks. But I got weighed this morning and I am down to 204. Which is a 5 lb loss. So I have lost a total of 135lbs!!
I am trying to concentrate on good habits, so after the honeymoon period is over I won't have to worry as much about regain.  I am swearing off of high carbs and sugar. I want to lose another 60lbs, so Ive got to work to get it off.
It felt so good down the shore to be able to wear a bathing suit and to be able to move around like a normie....lol.
we went to a water park and they have this lazy river ride, you sit in inner tubes and float around the park in this river. Well last year I couldn't fit in a tube, I had to hang on it, struggling the whole time, not too relaxing. However, this year, I could comfortably sit in one, or get a double one and stretch out and totally relax. I was amazed at how easy it was. and I floated for hours. I am still very self conscious of my body, but nobody was staring and whispering about the beached whale walking around. I kept asking my mom if I looked okay, and normal, she was like yes, but your bathing suit is too long. I have one that is like a dress sort of, and it hangs down to my knees, I think i need to be taller...lol...or get a different suit, even though I like the one I have. Still used to trying to hide. I actually thought I caught a couple of men checking me out down the shore. (embarrassed grin). And now they hold doors, and say hi or smile. totally different from a few short months ago. It is hard to get used to. In my brain I am still huge, especially when I look at my stomach when I am undressed. but sometimes I catch a glimpse in a mirror or window and it almost looks like the old thin me from my early 20's, blows my mind.
So now the vacation is over and the work again begins, well actually it isn't work, it is improving my habits to improve my overall health and body. I can't believe how easily I can get around now. When I think of doing something, my first instinct is I can't move and do it, but if I get up and do it, it is like nothing, what a trip.  I hope that this is making sense...lol
My thoughts come out jumbled....lol.  I will have to take my measurements and compare them. I know that I have lost over 100 inches. My waist now I think is like 38inches and it was 63 inches when i started so that is 25 inches right there...lol. No wonder I can fasten a seat belt and can steer the car without my stomach getting in the way.  Okay I guess enough spouting off for now. I'll be back later. Gotta catch up with my yahoo group. They probably think I quit the group.
I want to keep all pre and post ops in my prayers as well as anyone suffering from the horrible disease of obesity. I also want to keep all of our military in my prayers, oh on the 4th of July we watched a group of coast guard cadets (don't know the correct label) graduate. They did a whole ceremony, it meant so much, especially on independence day. I am very patriotic.
Okay later.
Lisa
339/204/???  lap/rny 10-23-03 -135lbs

07-11-04
I just realized as I was reading someone else's profile that I have jumped a few weight categories. I started out as super morbidly obese, then passed through morbidly obese, severely obese and now I am just obese! Soon to be just overweight, then normal. It has been such a wonderful journey. I went to our support group at HUP yesterday and everyone was complimenting me, it was great. I was also wearing a size 16 skirt and I actually think I looked kind of thinner in it. It is weird the tricks that your mind plays on you.  Today when I went to church, people were so shocked, well surprised sounds nicer, and very complimentary again. A few who knew me in 1990-91 said that the old Lisa is coming back! LOL....I still have 60lbs to lose and people are saying that I am getting thin. I find this way too funny. I think it is just the contrast between how big I was and how much smaller I am getting (even though I am still big right now).
I am gonna start walking again tonight. I fell off of the exercise horse when I was sick and have not made it back on as of yet.  I am determined though, because I want to make it to goal.
I am going to contact a nutritionist and a therapist. I am having trouble figuring out what to eat (so I really think I am not eating enough) and some of the issues that contributed to the 200lb weight gain are coming back up. I am losing my security padding. So I am feeling more vulnerable and insecure. weird that fat can do that to you. I guess my fat has always been my protection. I also had a med check appointment with my psychiatrist, he thinks I am losing quickly and is concerned, he asked me if I was starving myself, of course I am not, I am not eating a great variety of foods, my head is caught up in the numbers so I am supplementing with protein bars and shakes.
(therefore I think the need for a therapist).
I am starting to think that maybe I will have plastics done after all. I am suffering with darn rashes under my breasts and panni...uuuuggghhhh....talk about discomfort. My upper back is bothering me too, you know the part where your bra goes across your back, it actually aches. I think it is because of the skin pulling in the front (darn panni) and probably from inactivity too. So I am going to call my doc and see about the rashes and the back pain. Gotta get my b12 shot anyway and my bloodwork for my prothrombin time and INR (for bloodthinners).
I can't get over this mental hurdle that I can do stuff again. I used to be so active then after so many years of vegging, it is hard to get it into my thick skull that I can move.  I stay in the house sooo much and do nothing. I mean I sit at the computer and read and read and read and sometimes update my profile. but I am having a problem getting anything else done. This sucks because it is summer vacation for my kids and I feel like I am wasting their time as well as mine. I also feel like because I am not doing all of the stuff other mommies do that I am not a good mom. (see why I need the therapist..lol).
I am getting new furniture on tuesday (well new to me, my uncle is giving me furniture because he is moving and doesn't want to take it with him. Its fairly new though). Well anyway, I am getting this furniture delivered on tuesday and I still have a ton of crap sitting around my livingroom and kitchen, not to mention the upstairs. I have to have it cleared and I am not doing anything...uuugghhh. When am I going to get my act together. (see therapist would help again....lol).
Anyone with any decluttering tips please email me, I am desperate....lol...
okay, I guess that I have to break away from the computer if I am going to get dinner made and some cleaning done. Oh yeah and fit a walk in before it gets dark....lol...the exercise promise I made myself.
I want to keep all of you pre and post ops in my prayers as well as everyone who suffers from this disease of obesity. I also want to continue to keep our military in my prayers, God bless them for what they sacrifice for me and my children.
Okay later gators.
Lisa
postop lap/rny 10-23-03 339/202/???  -137lbs!!!
(almost breaking my next goal of being under 200lbs)

07-23-04
Hey everyone,
I know I haven't been updating that much lately, I have been having growing pains with my children.  Boy do they think they are grown up...they are trying to give me gray hair...lol...Well I am now officially 9 months out and as of this morning I weighed 200.5lbs. I was so hoping to be under 200 lbs by now, I am bummed...well I am still excited that I have lost 138.5lbs in 9 mths....could not have ever dreamed of losing that kind of weight prior to WLS. 
I signed up for a 12 week program at the YMCA. They offer free personal trainer services for 12 weeks to full priveledge members. Is that not awesome!! I went 2 days ago to check out all of the various equipment they have....it was sooo cool...I am psyched to get started.  I go on monday (today is friday) and fill out the paperwork and have my first workout. The trainer helps me figure out what kind of workout and how often and I don't know what else.  I can't wait to work on getting into better shape. (and hopefully under 200lbs!!)  I"ll keep you all posted!!

My sister Denise had her 6mth checkup today. I don't know how it went, I didn't get to talk to her afterwards, so I guess I'll have to wait until tommorrow to find out. She is doing great.
I bought some more clothes in smaller sizes. It is exciting to be able to do that. I have a pair of shorts on today that are 14/16 (they are like stretch denim but not tight at all), amazing.
I do have problems still with rashes under my panni and under my breasts and I keep seeing my doc about it. In case I may decide i need reconstructive surgery I want it documented.
My hair has finally stopped falling out...yippee life is good.

When I went to the doctors the other day, I asked about pain I was having in my upper back. My pcp said probably arthritis, but that strength training would help.  I hope it does, I asked if it may be caused by hanging skin and she actually told me that she did not know, that not enough was known, she couldn't rule it out, but she simply did not know. So I dont' know, I just hope after i strengthen my core muscles that it will help my back.
Okay I'm gonna go for now.
I love you all and I will keep all of you pre and post ops as well as everyone who suffers from this horrible disease of obesity in my prayers.
lisa
postop lap/rny 10-23-03 
339/200.5/???  -138.5lbs