90+ pounds out

Apr 26, 2012

So, it has been awhile. Things were rough for a bit after the hospitalization. It really pissed off my boss. She at one point was berating me over the phone while I was in my hospital bed. So, I quit my job.

It was a hard decision, made harder by the fact that we're not exactly financially stable. However, I couldn't take care of myself in that environment and it was making me sick. Luckily some circumstances aligned in such a way that I was able to get some consulting work just as I was leaving and an unexpected small infusion of cash have made things fairly smooth and made me feel llke I made the right decision.

So now I'm doing the stay at home mom thing until something else pops up. I've been applying for jobs like crazy and I've gotten a decent amount of bites, even a few 2nd interviews. I was 2nd choice twice. However, almost doesn't pay the bills. So while the job situation is getting worked out I've been finishing up the semester of school- being ill really did a number on my ability to keep up- but I am all caught up and just about finished. I've been working on my garden- my salad greens and kale are looking pretty awesome. I'm really working at showing my daughter where food comes from and helping her appreciate vegetables more. She really enjoys ripping off little bits of the lettuce and chewing on it while 'helping' in the garden.

I've also been doing some crazy cooking. A favorite new thing is making frozen yogurt out of frozen fruit, honey, and greek yogurt. I just blend it up and throw it in the freezer. Because of the low fat count and the fact that its not made in an ice cream maker it gets quite hard when very frozen, but if you just let it sit out for an hour before serving or nuke it for a minute it's very ice cream-y when you eat it.

This week we've had enchilda lasagna, stuffed shells (I do zuccini rollups for myself), stuffed baby bell peppers, and thai peanut noodles (bulked up with crazy veggies since i'm avoiding the noodles).

But anyway, back to the title. Yes I'm 90 pounds out. Hovering at about 95 actually. I don't really see it in the mirror which is crazy. I see it in photos. I still have about 80 to lose. I do have a lot more energy. I can just up and go on a walk with my daughter without calculating how far it will be and trying to figure out if I can make it. My feet actually don't hurt at all anymore. Everytime i started to exercise before they would start acting up after a day or two.

I have had a few unfortunate incidents with food. I think rice is definitely going to stay out of the picture. I had several successful outings with sashimi and 1 little sushi roll piece. But the other day I went out to lunch with a friend and ate a roll first. After only 2 pieces of sashimi (which was not too much based on the other experiences) I started to feel quite sick. I only lived 5 minutes away so I figured I'd be fine driving home and throw up when I got there. I made it to the 2nd stop light before it came up. Luckily the to go container was handy.

Anyhow, the only thing I can think that was different was eating the roll first. Pasta and bread don't feel good either but I only nibble at them here and there.

So that is where I am. Feeling more and more comfortable with eating at the correct pace and portion. Very comfortable with the types of foods I should be eating and slowly getting to know my body in its much saggier but smaller state. 

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