Sitting, Waiting, Wishing....

Oct 08, 2012

 just on here reading everyone's thoughts and dreams coming true, some will soon be in MTY and some are now in the recovery stage. Oh how i wish it was my turn. I can't wait until i go back to my cardiologist at the end of the month, normally it isnt an issue and i never worry about it but now i can't get the echo techs words out of my head....i have all these what if's and can't seem to quit wondering if i won't be stuck with my loose skin an sagging breast forever because of heart problems. i was born with a heart murmur but havent had anyone detect that since i was a child, i do have palpitations though and now it seems i am having some PVC's i just keep praying that it's going to be nothing and i will be able to go through with my own transformation. i have never been blessed with wonderful breast and want them badly (my hubby does too for that matter) lol but they are more for my own sanity than anything, to feel like a woman would be a dream come true. i can see the MTY caverns now and smell the iodine....sigh, i want to find a wishing well and make use of it. i love the fact that my kids can now tell me that i am soooo skinny and wrap there little arms around me, it feels like a dream come true and my grandfather whom is 84 years old is proud of me as well. i'm loving how life is right now and just ready to get the rest of my transformation over with.

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