LuckyMama
More old posts...(thats it)...
Nov 30, 2009
I am back home...5 days ago
Hey Guys,
I just got home from the hospital. I am fine. I did it. It was the worst night of my life post-op but I made it on the other side. For these people who say "we take the easy way out" ..f$%K you. It is extremely painful and not as easy at all. I am not really in the condition of posting a lot now, so I will go but I will be back soon to give you a detailed post on the whole thing. Thank you for thinking of me..
Hugs
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The Night Before...
7 days ago
I cant sleep. I need to wake up at 4.30 am and get ready and that keeps me up. The antibiotics they gave me to take a so strong that they give me the worst cramps ever. I burb and burb and then I go to the bathroom and have diareah.. Whatever is happening in there is very paintfull and really cleans me out. I am just so done now. I cant believe that pre-op for me has been so painfull. Cant wait for Tuesday (the day, I am supposed to be home). And I am so hungry now...I really want a toast, so bad... I wonder when will be the next time I can eat something that is not liquid? Wow, isnt that what got me here in a first place... Be the first to leave a comment.
The Day before Surgery...
7 days ago
Hi Guys,
First, I want to thank you for the kind notes. I really needed to hear them because today was, and still is, a rough one. Jeezz, where do I begin. Maybe by saying that admire all of you who need to be on a liquid diet weeks before the surgery. I did only one day of it and it sucked soo bad. I dont like sweet as much and having to be on a diet that requires me to drink juices, wasnt my thing. It gave me the worst migraine ever and it stayed with me till about couple of hours ago. Anyway, thats not the hell part as much...
Today, I woke up at 8am took the two pills from the bowels cleanser kit, mixed the liquit stuff and went back to bed. Woke up at about 10am with really bad cramps, ran to the bathroom and lets just say...it felt like I peed for a very long time but not from the right place :) That followed twice...At 11am the hell began..I had to drink 8oz cup of the bowel cleanser juice thing every 10 min till gone and the whole barrel is about 1 liter. Let me tell you about it...I am typing this now and gagging thinking about it.. The day went this way: Drink, Gag, Vomit, Diareah..all this while having the world's most horrible migraine. At one point, I wanted to seriously die. I vomit so much and so severe that I probably tore something in throat and had some blood come out. I just couldnt keep the thing in me. My husband got scared that I wont be able to have the results needed for the surgery so he had to call my surgeon and ask him if that was ok. He allowed me to take my migraine medication, so I cant at least kill that pain and also explained that I could drink just as much as I can. I was only about 1 1/2 away from finishing the damn thing, so I stopped completely.
Now, I am running to the bathroom every 5 to 10 minutes and all I have come out is yellow liquids. They also made me take some strong antibiotics - two different kinds, two pills 3 times a day. They are this huge, horse pills that make you even sicker. But at least I dont a migraine now, that is really good for me.
I read so many testimonials here and noone really complains about their prep work. I dont know why, for me it was horrible. If I knew what I went through today, I dont know if I would wanna do it again. And thats tough to say for me because I am not a weak person and I barely ever complain about anything. I dont know why this day was so rough for me. Maybe its a little bit of everything..the meds, plus me being a little scared and the unexpected. Sure, it felt good when I stepped on the scale now and saw that big weight loss. Coming from 293 to 286.8 in one night is awsome, considering how used I was seeing the scale only go up. I am sure at the end this surgery and all to follow with it will bring me so much happiness that I wont even know what to do with it, so a little struggle now is not a problem. I am ready.
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First Day of Pre-op Diet...
on November 21, 2009 3:54 pm
Today kinda sucks. I have a bad headache for which I cant take anything due to doctors instructions and I am hungry. I know that most of you have it even worse, starving for months before surgery, so I should not complain but I just cant help it. I spent the day just drinking liquids and now when I think about it, the hunger is not really in my stomach but more like in my head. I think about food constantly, dreamed about it and all I do is sit here and feel sorry for myself that I can have something to chew. But again, this menthality brought me to 292 pounds, so I really need to think about of how I am going to break that cycle.
The worst part of today is my headache for which I can take only Thylinol, which never does anything to me, so completely sucks. I have that background of really bad migraines and that really scares me... My poor husband feels so sorry for me that I cant eat and I feel so guilty that he feels that way, when we both know how much of struggling it will be after the surgery and we pitty me only on my first day of pre-op. Kinda sucks, to know how much I am addicted to food. And I say addicted because, it really is addiction. Its obsessing my life. All I could think of before is what do I eat now, where do we go later, what do I cook now, what do I shop for food, do we have this or that??? Its all about food. I even enjoy grocery shopping and thinking about..the reason is because I love the image of food and the calm it gives. And it really calms me down. I have discovered that food is like a drug to me. I black out completely when I need my next fix. I dont care what kind of promises I have made to myself, or if I should not spend the money on it..if I felt hunger I fed it.
Well, minus the headache I am good at handling my hunger. Tomorrow is my bowel prep and "I cant" wait to start. I cant believe I am only one night away from the day. Crazy!!!!
