Too many issues

Apr 01, 2015

Well things were going along great.  And then the world came crashing in.  I struggle each day right now to avoid binge eating.  We have been told we will have to move when our lease is up as the owners are returning home.  Moving=Extreme Stress.  All I want to do is cry.  I don't even want to eat.  I'm still waiting to start my new job that was delayed by four weeks.  I am still waiting for gynecologist to do an ablation to help stop some of the other issues I am experiencing.  Some days I just want to give up.  Being treated like a piece of crap by people is not motivating.  If is wasn't for soccer in Guelph and Volleyball in Orangeville and the support they unknowly provide me I more than like be 400 pounds by now.  Guelph is where I am allowed to play soccer as a person not an over weight slow poke.  I have scored 8 goals in one winter because they allow me to play.  I am no different then they are.  It is such an impowering feeling to play with them.  Volleyball accepts you for who you are we are there to have fun and learn and grow.  My skills have improved so much.  This summer is going to be so hard.  Searching for a new place to call home, saving for first and last plus a mover this time around.  I'm also frustrated with this whole Sleep Apnea process.  My machine has been giving me grieve since September and in January I had it looked at and was told yea its got issues but you cannot get a new one until March 2015.  So I go yesterday to get a new machine and get told I have to do a new sleep study.  I get so made.  I was never told that when I was there in January.  This is crazy.  Like I really want to use all this stuff, lets just make it a little harder for me to live. 

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