18 week update

Jul 18, 2010

4 and a half months!  I am so conflicted--it seems like a long time- but also a short time- I feel like I have come a long way -but also not enough.  So I am using this blog to put myself in perspective.  I have lost about 70 lbs --that is roughly half a pound a day since surgery.  I am wearing a loose 22-pants that haven't fit me in 4 years (and then didn't really fit me that good) .  I weigh less than I did when I got married, less than my husband, and less than I did when I met him.   I am about 18 lbs away from 199 (huge goal!)  I got  rid of my first round of "big clothes" cause I know I don't ever have to go back to them (I really look forward to having one wardrobe-instead of bits of clothes in every size from 16-24). I don't snore anymore, My back doesn't hurt doing simple things, I can cross my legs (and often do), I can sit in chairs without worry (most chairs anyway) . I went on a 5 mile hike in the woods with a bunch of skinny people and didn't have a stroke.  I eat better food, less food, and more water than I ever have.  I take my vitamins everyday. I don't feel deprived or angry or hungry all the time (past diets you can go to hell!) Ok I think my pep talk is working! 

Anywho me and the hubby are starting the ABS exercise routine--beginning with 3 days a week of training and 3 days a week of light cardio.  We are already pretty much doing the diet plan. I am hoping this kicks those last 18 lbs off in 6 weeks--My big goal was to be under 200 by the end of the summer and at goal (or near) by X-mas. I am going home to see my fam and friends for the first time (or it will be) a year and a half--I think they are going to freak out--I was looking back at pictures from my going away party...My GOD I was huge--bloated and popping out of my clothes.  People are starting to notice and say things--I am still in the "obese" camp though--I think alot of people just look at me and say "She's fat-moving on"  I think many skinny/normal weight people just have a normal/not normal catigories for people and their weight-so me losing 70 lbs is not super noticeable because I am still bigger than average. Now these next 70 lbs are going to ROCK! these are the big guys--the difference between 215 and 135 is huge in most peoples eyes --I know it was for me on the way up the weight ladder. 

I have no regrets at all--I think having my gallbladder out during the surgery helped alot with sickness and having complications.  I still puke sometimes (about once-twice a week) if I try something new and it doesn't sit right (chocolate milk, and black beans are the latest culprits), but after it is up and out I feel fine and go right about my day.   I talked to my sister in-law and her husband about the surgery--I tried to keep it real and talk about the complications and how hard it can be in the beginning, middle and end for some people.  I really wanted to say "You need to do it! You don't know how much your life is affected until the weight starts coming off!!!!"   But I stayed neutral and didn't push one way or the other. 

On a side note (whew I am chatty today) I watched the TV show for teens called "Huge" about a girl that goes to fat camp--at first I was a little put off by it--this girl was saying "My mission is to get fatter this summer"- but then they started showing some reality to the plight of being overwieght.   I am going to watch some more and see what they do with it.

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