marymo362
Surgery date set, and more
Feb 28, 2014
My face is thinner, my clothes are getting loose, I pee a LOT. I go to workouts at the gym, I walk on breaks. I don't go out for drinks on the weekend and god knows I don't recall what a hamburger and fries taste like anymore. And I don't crave them! much
All my life I have put everyone and everything ahead of me, that's what we do! Women.....mid-westerners....we do. Did! This year is my year! My son is 30, my daughter got married. My nest is empty, I have a great job with fabulous benefits. it's time. for about 15 years I have been thinking about this surgery. 8 years ago I went to an informational session, and decided I would wait. I am glad i waited.Life is better now, all the planets are aligned! Time to do it! Researching for 6 months........it's time
I got fast-tracked to a surgery date, March 18th. I still have to lose 6 pounds by the 12th so I can get in for my closed RNY. So, to be able to garner my slotted surgery spot on the 18th I have to lose that weight. I know I got it!
I have been making new friends who are surgery buddies, both virtually and in person here in ol' Salem Oregon. I now have to meet the surgeon (I switched surgeons part way through the process and will meet her next week)
I am headed toward health. I have been in denial for so long. You familiar with body dysmorphia? I absolutely am stunned and taken aback when I see photos of me; I did not believe that I am (was) 312 pounds. In my head I was much thinner and much more healthy. Possibly came from the fact that i hike, bike, walk, do 5Ks several times a year. But I have been nothing more than a pair of killer blue eyes in the mirror in my car because I never look at myself. No full length mirror at home. I avoid window reflections. when I do see me in a window reflection i think mostly about how distorted the glass must be.
