Sunday Sunday!

Mar 09, 2014

This is an evening of introspection for me. Feeling emotional, going between laughter and tears. So, I think I am hungry. Oh wait, yes I am hungry. F'ing hungry as H-E-Double Hockeysticks. I HAVE to make weight tomorrow at my noon o'clock pre-op meeting which includes my medical team and The Dude. (The Dude is my sweet husband, who is my rock, and is more loving than I think I can ever be!)

My RNY is scheduled for the 18th at 11:00 AM, so making weight is vital! I sound like a high school/college wrestler......making weight! It's at least as important. Folks, I am morbidly obese, and I have been hiding inside my weight for a long time. Struggles, yes but following a sexual and physical assault in 1998 I have watched myself balloon with all kinds of personal assistance. I was always going to make damn sure no one ever wanted to assault me again.  This issue has taken a fair amount of therapy to understand that weight was not the real issue. Emotional eating, protective consumption, a couple years of self-medicating, advocating for everyone but me. 

Well, that's a wrap! I have turned that around, thank you very much and working all the time on this. And now..... self-improvement. 

Thank you for listening, thank you for being here!

Peace!

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