Working overtime makes it difficult, but...

Mar 02, 2012

I'm still losing!  I got the chance to earn some overtime pay this past week, for the first time since I started my job back in late January.  It was nice to have the chance to earn some extra money, plus it shows that my supervisor has a certain amount of faith in me!!  I was happy to work the extra hours, but totally worn out and in a lot of pain by the end of each shift.  I am continuing to have problems with my back.  Not serious back trouble, just painful muscle spasms that won't relax.  Before work I spend time on the heating pad and get a Ben Gay massage from Bob, and after work I spend as much time on the heating pad as I can stand.

I am very happy to be working, and even more happy that things are going well, and that I have a good chance of being hired as an actual company employee, but also worried that my stupid back is going to continue to make me miserable.  I am having a hard time with the pain, and I don't want to turn down the offer of overtime because I want to be a team player.  I really need to figure out how to stretch and relax all these muscles in my back, the ones along either side of the spine, from neck to buttocks.  They are killing me!

On another front, I am this close (fingers about 1/2 inch apart) to getting hired as an actual Fluortek employee!  This means medical insurance, which means that I can get my surgery without paying for the entire thing myself!  All I have to do is keep working hard, not be late or absent, and keep learning the job.  I met with my primary care physician Friday morning to begin my 6 months of weight loss monitoring.  She is pleased with the weight i have lost so far (30 pounds in 5 months) and I will go in monthly to get weighed.  She also gave me a carbohydrate counter to help me out.

I am so glad that I am continuing to lose weight, it is very tough and I am really struggling this week.  It seems that the pain and the long hours make it much harder for me to "do the right thing."  I have gotten used to ignoring my body's constant crying out for food;  I have learned to ignore the hunger pangs coming from my belly.  What is hardest for me is the "head hunger" that tells me that I really need Mac and Cheese or Home Fries, to make me feel better and have some energy.

I am so, so very needy this week, missing my beloved carbs!  I have had a couple of questionable meals, but I have decided to look on the positive side of these choices.  Eating a double cheeseburger may be naughty, it was kinda greasy, but no fries, no soda, and the school system says ketchup is a vegetable, so??  I did break down and have a Chik Fil A chicken biscuit, but I had two servings of chicken and only one biscuit, gave the second portion of bread to the dogs! I didn't even consider those tater tots, although they called out to me in their sensuous, grease soaked voices....

March is here, and I am glad spring is almost here.  Longer days really help with my depression.  I hope spring is sunny and warm, and that my daffodils bloom like crazy.  They are up, but not quite ready to open yet.  My crocuses are also peeking up from the ground, they usually blossom first but this year the daffodils have a head start.  I wish I were able to get outside and work in the garden, I really miss digging and pulling weeds, planting seeds and flowers, and pruning.  If I were healthy I'd be out there this weekend, getting ready for spring to pop.  Hopefully, by this time next year I'll not only be slimmer, I'll also be able to get out there and garden.  It used to be my number one stress relief before the fibromyalgia took it away from me.

Be sure to check out my friend Shelly's blog, she is giving away protein this week, the good stuff! you can find her at http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/
to sign up for the giveaway.

This is a great blog with excellent recipes and "food porn" to show off just how good looking as well as yummy post WLS food can be.  Keep your fingers crossed that I might win this week's giveaway, if you don't win!!

Melissa

 

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