I am scheduled to get my first fill tomorrow.  I will be leaving around 3am to get to Lubbock on time.  It almost didn't happen though,  Frezza's office called and told me that my fill had been canceled!  ARGH!!   They were claiming that my insurance didn't approve the fill  under flouro, but I had a letter in my hand saying it was approved.  So, in the end it was straightened out....but it sure did upset me and ruined my day!!

  Almost since starting solid foods my weight has been stuck.  I was hovering around 230....never lower, but sometimes a few pounds higher.  I have been counting calories, trying to not exceed 1,000.  Some days lately my hunger has been pretty big.  I figure Aunt Flo is about a week away which explains my appetite, but of course doesn't help my frustration level.  

I drug our Total Gym in to the house from the garage last weekend.  I started using it, but can't remember all of the exercises.  As soon as I quit stressing about the numbers on the scale the numbers went down.  4 whole pounds in one day, and another pound since yesterday!!  Yeah!!!  I knew that my body couldn't fight me forever!!  Ha! 

My fill is confirmed for the 29th, which is great.  Sarah did tell me that I will be back on phase 1 for a week.  UGH!!   Oh well, I don't want to take any chances on stretching my pouch, so I will do my best to follow their orders. I haven't been good about posting my food intake, I think focusing on it that much was actually bad for me, if that makes any sense. 

Oh my goodness......I had my first PB and sliming episode, and I never want to go through that again!!!      I started eating solid foods a week ago.  I have been watching my portions and trying to make good choices with food.  Since doing so I had gained a couple of pounds, !  Go figure!  So, I think THAT, along with the fact that I will probably start my period in a week or so led me to wanting to eat more food.  We had a potluck yesterday for Valentine's Day.  I had a couple of pinwheels.  About 30 minutes later it was time to eat.  I had a hot wing.  On my plate I also had a small amount of salad, a FRIED chicken thigh  (I know!)  and some chicken enchiladas.  I knew I wouldn't or shouldn't eat it all, but I wanted some of everything.  I ate the salad.  We were busy at work and I was expected to log on to the phones and help the agents take calls.  I started eating faster.....had a few bites of enchiladas....a few bites of chicken, then....OMG!!!!  I had a horrible pain in my chest, then my mouth started salivating like it does when you are about to throw up.  I proceeded to grab my trash can then realized I had time to run to the restroom.  I was hunched over the toilet for about 5 to 10 minutes.  (next part is graphic)  I was able to PB the food in about 5 different PB's,  The food was coming up from the larger stomach, so there wasn't any stomach acid.  So, the taste wasn't like throw up, but it was still gross!!  A ton of mucas would come up with each lump of food.  It was like the food was wrapped in mucas,  YUCKO!!   I was sore the rest of the day and stayed with liquids.  I have had mainly just soft foods today.  
As scary as the situation was, I was sort of excited it happened,  I only say that because I have read so many posts about people experiencing this....I figured it would happen but only after a few fills.  I guess this sort of gives me hope that I won't need a ton of fills to have really good restriction.  I think the fill I have scheduled on the 29th might even do it for awhile,  I don't know, I can always hope though!!  
Other than that there hasn't been too much going on.  One of my good friends from Social Security lost one of her sons.  He was onlyl 44 years old!!    I don't know what happened, but I am going to the funeral tomorrow.  Poor Linda. 

Some of the people I admire on OH keep a daily food log.  I think I need to do this also to help myself be more responsible for what I am eating.  Since moving to solid foods, I have noticed a remarkable slow down in weight loss and that most of the time I can eat more than I should.  

Breakfast: 1 packet of weight control oatmeal 160 calories, half a cup of SF Applesauce 25 calories

Snack:  1 bag of 100 calorie snack crackers

Lunch:  Chicken fajita meat ( 1/2 cup) 140 calories, one South Beach multi grain wrap 110 calories.

Snack: 1 bag of 100 calorie snack crackers

Dinner: 1/2 approx roast beef, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes and 1/2 cup green bean casserole.  ??? calories


I think all in all I did okay.....I just feel like I pigged out today.  At lunch I would have eaten more, but I was scarfing down the chicken and I felt like it almost got stuck.  I had a sharp pain in my chest after about the third bite, I tried a couple of more bites but I felt like nothing was going down, so I stopped.  It was a weird feeling and a reminder to myself that once I do get proper restriction I will need to really watch how much I put in my mouth, then chew chew chew!!

A mixed week for sure!   Good new is I have continued to lose, I am down to 230 lbs now, which is a 30 lb loss!!    The other good thing is I have graduated to eating regular foods.  I started eating more regular and soft foods on Thursday, which was my 4 week bandiversary.  I am doing okay on that, I am just really trying to watch my calorie intake.  I am trying to stay at 1,000 calories or less right now.  
I had my first fill scheduled for 02/29/08, and since Debbie felt like she needed to see Dr. Frezza, she called to see if she could schedule an appointment for the same day.  It would be fun to go there together! Well....she called and got some bad news.  Dr. Frezza is moving his practice somewhere else!!   Sarah told her that all February appointments will have to be rescheduled!  ARGH!!!!!  So, what little aftercare I had from Frezza's  office is now going to be zilch!!  I don't know what I am going to do now.  There MIGHT be a band doctor coming to Lovelace which I might be able to see...but, I dont know when he is coming and IF he will take me as a patient!  I'm glad I got my surgery though, because at least I know I can use Fill Centers USA if I have to!  I would still like to have my first fill done by Frezza's office if possible.  I just don't know what's going to happen now.