Michelle Smith
Just thinking aloud....
Aug 08, 2010
Best Best Best thing I have ever did for myself. I DESERVED this. I am worth this. Ya know, for so many years, I thought I was not worth much. I was fat, & in pain all the time from my weight. I wanted to slide thru life, without anyone noticing me. I literally felt that I wanted to die, & not have anyone really notice. I was morbidly obese, & my life was coming to an end. I was in the twilight of my life, & only in my 30's. I knew death was waiting for me. I knew my body could not go on for much longer. My mind was still a young girl's mind, wanting to live life, & love life. My physical body was dying. I hit rock bottom one day (& you know,for the life of me, I cant even remember what it was) It was in Sept 2009. Kinda like the proverbial straw I guess....I decided that,for once & for all, I was going to stop being my own victim, & DO SOMETHING about it. I sick & tired of being sick & tired. I started researching WLS, specifically the lap band. I actually had a date set in Cancun Mexico, & I was readin so many posts about lap band problems. I started thinking, Oh NO,AM I trading 1 hell for another hell? So,I kept reading. I started reading about DS. After much research, I realized I did not want that procedure. So,I started reading about VSG. (I had really never heard of it) The more I read,the more I liked it. I started lurking here on the VSG board. After much research & soul searching, I informed my hubby I was flying to Cancun for VSG. I was calm. He said "ok", lets do it. *I am very type A personality. He knew that if I was that sure of it,then I had done my research,& felt that this was the way to go. I flew to Cancun, had a textbook surgery, & flew home. Went back to work 5 days later. I have not once regretted doing this. All you newbies, if you are on here reading this, then you are desperate for a change. Let me tell you, I would do this a million times over again. I am so blessed to have this opportunity. I encourage anyone thinking about this, to do it for YOU. No matter what WLS you decide, do it for YOU. Good night OH family.
