Cindy F.
Turkey Day ramblings....
Nov 28, 2009
It's been a while since I've posted so I thought I better put some thoughts down. My intention is to use this blog for myself to track my journey - doesn't work so good if I don't make posts every now and then. 
Got through Thanksgiving without completely gorging on food. It helps that I don't like pumpkin pie, or apple pie (my family's favorites to have at holidays.) Just had turkey, stuffing and potatoes. Everything was good - my mom's a great cook. It's funny how before I'm getting ready to eat something, or thinking about one of my favorite meals, I freak out at the thought of not being able to eat it again - or best case not as much. But then after I get done eating it - it never seems to have been as good or desirable as I had imagined! I guess that's good - and I need to remind myself of having these feelings because after I have the surgery I won't be able to have the second half of that experience.
Reminder to self - the food you have been craving, gorging on and eating your whole life isn't really as good as you think it is and/or it's not worth the price you're paying for it from a health perspective!!!!
Mark and I both turned in our paperwork to the surgeon this past week. I still need to wait for my final physician referral letter (which I should be getting next week). Mark had all his documentation complete. I'm hoping for a call in a week or two for at least one of us to take the next step. It still feels like we're in limbo.....
I have continued to read all I can get my hands or eyes on. Mark says I'm going to know more about the surgery than the surgeons themselves!!! I just don't want any surprises - mentally. I need to know all that can happen, and be prepared for it. Mentally and physically. Everything still seems to be surreal - like it can happen to others but it won't happen to me. I still have so many doubts but am trying to be positive and have a "can-do" attitude. I will need as much positive energy as I can muster.
I have met so many positive, wonderful people in this process - both online and in the support group meetings I have gone to. I'm excited for those people who are farther along in the pre-surgery process than I am, try to be supportive of those struggling with the changes and challenges from a recent surgery, and am so thankful for those who have had the surgery and so graciously are willing to share their experiences and support. I'm normally a very independent person who doesn't like to rely on others but I know I will need all the support I can get as I proceed.
Reminder #2 to self - don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help - it is better to succeed with the help of others than to do it all on your own only to fail.
I can do this.
I want to do this.
I must do this.
I WILL DO THIS!!
