Worries while waiting

Dec 15, 2009

So, Mark and I still sit here waiting for our surgery consult on January 4th.  It's tough on days like this.  Work has been stressful, and will only get worse this time of the year.  Driving to and from work on the snowy roads is enough to give me an ulcer.  And all I can think about when I'm driving home on days like this is what I will eat when I get home. 

How will I be able to do this (the surgery)? 
Why can't I find something else that will bring me as much pleasure as food?
I have so much to be thankful for - and have so many positive things in my life - why does food have such a strong hold over me? 

So I worry.  And get more depressed.  Not good. 

Mark's excited for the appointment with the surgeon, which is a good thing. He's usually the worry wart between the two of us.

I know I can do this.  I know I want to do this. I know I need to do this for myself and my family.  Maybe it's just the waiting that is creating these worries.... 

Just my thoughts tonight.

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