WOW!100+ lbs down

Aug 15, 2011

Yes, I'm more than 100 lbs. down from my highest weight. That is crazy to me. I was so focused on getting into the 150's, that this on-scale victory almost slipped past me without me realizing it. 102 lbs to be exact as of this morning. When I saw that scale hit 260 a couple years back, it was a horrible feeling. I'd promised myself that I'd never let my weight get to 150 and there I was 10 lbs. over that. But, today is a new day, Thank God! 

 I wanted and even visualized it, but this is better than I imagined. It's also a reality check for me, b/c I knew and even said that "it's not a magic bullet", "the same problems you have before surgery will be there after surgery". But, being fat all of my life I just knew that I would have worked them all out by now. NOT! I still have my days, too many to count when I still feel extra large and not in charge. I still see the fat girl,even though I'm still a ways from my goal, I'm a lot smaller than I used to be. I still feel some kind of way when loved ones say you're small, getting skinny (not my goal, athletic is). I about had a fit when a guy referred to me as being tiny, it still feels weird going into clothing stores, looking for size 8 bottoms, md. tops, and size small/md. dresses. Like a fraud, BUT, I'm getting better.

I'm doing better as far as being on track this month, July was disastrous, but I found my focus again. I'm enjoying these 150's. WOW, that's still wild. Ready for the 140's and a size 6, but smelling the roses in the meantime,  along the scenic route I'm taking to reach my goal of 135-140.

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