nevergonnalearn
the final countdown
Mar 21, 2013
So it is almost here. I go from fine to crying in a split second. 107 hours. I will be on my way to the hospital to change my life forever. First full day of liquids it is easier. The next two days will suck ( as I have done this before trying to keep weight off before my pre op weigh in ) At least my husband will be home. So hopefully he will make sure I don't eat anything. I have my DS manual sitting next to me. I start to read some parts of it and it just seems so strange to me. It is one of those situations where the only way to understand it is for me to go through it. I have a lot of things going through my mind. I am trying to be as calm as possible. I even have been in denial about it until today when I got my pre admission phone call. It feels like it is just jan. 11th and I am getting that phone call saying I was approved and to set my date. I really do not know if I will ever be ready but I know I won't back down. It is a flaw of mine that I never know when to back down.