Downer.

Jun 07, 2014

After successfully meeting the requirements for DS surgery, my surgeon's office submitted to idiotic Blue Cross and they denied as not a center of excellence.  They really should re-write their PDF file on their site. The hospital is on that list.  It's not coming up in the search anymore.  I guess MMC's certification fell through.  Typical Modesto.  So bummed out right now, I feel lost.  I did it.  I made it, I lost what they needed me to and I am still eating how I need to.

But the task of finding a new doctor that practices at a new hospital that I have no experience with and no knowledge of is just looming.  They're all 2+ hours away from me.  I'll have to take MORE time off work to go see them, if they'll even take my transferred paperwork.  I don't know if I can go through this again.  I've lost 125lbs on my own, I can't keep it off.  I've struggled with it for years.  That's why I want to get the surgery in the first place, so I can have extra help keeping off the weight I'll lose.  I don't have 12 hours a day to dedicate to exercise, I work like most adults.  Ugh.

Just want to cry.

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