In the Zone

Mar 07, 2011

It’s funny. I am in the zone right now. It’s amazing how quickly your brain can get back on track if you really just make an effort. I weigh 166 today. Down 3 pounds this week. In a perfect world my goal is to weigh 150 again but as I get older I know deep down inside this is something that may or may not happen. I weighed 150 pounds as my lightest weight ever. That was exactly 1 year from surgery. I then put on 10 pounds when I joined team in training and did my half marathon. Obviously, that was muscle but since I have been 150 before, my mind is telling me my goals are reachable again. I have to weigh 155 to be considered “normal.” It’s funny; I am back at being overweight according to the lovely BMI calculator. It says I need to loose 11 pounds to be considered in the “normal” range. My blood pressure is still superb and yes, ladies and gentlemen I still take my vitamins EVERY DAY- morning and night. Iron and a mulit vitamin. I am guilty, I don’t take enough calcium. I have hit the gym hard this week and stupid me I am running a leg for the Big Sur marathon in May. It is keeping my mind on exercise and I think I am getting a little addicted to it. The past month has been good. I lost 4 pounds, drinking water again regulary and got back to exercising again. Oh, and I also stopped biting my nails which is a HUGE deal to me since I have been a nail biter all of my life. I spoke in front of our city council and thought I was just about going to die. I thought I was a better public speaker but my heart was racing and my back started to sweat! I took public speaking speech in college but daaaaamn I was scared. LOL I do so much better one on one communication and during work meetings. I think it requires practice and actually doing it to become good at public speaking. I remember during work meetings I was soooooooo scared all the time to speak. Now I can do it so well. I would have NEVER gone up there to speak if I still weighed 270 pounds. Never. I thought I was a lot more confident then I really am. Damnit. 

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