Set up my first appointment!

May 28, 2010

So, my first appointment is Wednesday.  Obviously, I'm ECSTATIC!!  I've been seriously considering WLS for 5 years, and it's just time!  But now it seems like people aren't so excited for me as they used to be.

I've been getting a lot of "are you sure?" and "why do you have to take the easy way out?".  I really, really hate that!  It's not their fault that they're not educated about it, because they're not considering it for themselves.  But to me, it's like asking why I'm taking antibiotics when I'm sick.  I'm doing something, and yes it's drastic, to better myself.  And to create a better life for me and my son.  I have co-morbidities because of my weight, and I'm just sick of being this size.

I want to cross my legs!  I want to dance!  I want to be able to take my son to the fair and be able to get on the rides with him.  I don't want to be that Mom on the sidelines.  I don't want to go through clinicals (like I did as an EMT and CNA) being a "big girl".  It's HARD being in the healthcare profession and being heavy.  It just doesn't mix.  And now that I'm officially an RN student, it's even more motivation to treat my body right.

Oh, and I HATE how people ask if this is something I should do, because I need to be a good role model for my son.  Are you kidding?  How can I be 300lbs+ and tell my son to not eat french fries and ice cream because they're bad for him when I've CLEARLY done so myself?!  I'm doing this to be a good role model for my son!  (well, that, and regain my self-esteem!)  Wouldn't I be a better role model for my son by doing this because I took the steps necessary to take care of my body?

I still haven't decided which surgery is best for me, yet.  I'm stuck between Gastric Bypass and Sleeve Gastrectomy.  I just don't have a good feeling about Lap-Band.  Considering that 25% have to have a follow-up surgery at some point, and with how active my life is quickly becoming (my 6 month old is already CRUISING FURNITURE!  Will someone please tell me what happened to my BABY??), I'm just afraid that the band will slip or have some other issue.  But, eventually, I would like to have more kiddos after I meet someone someday.  In the seminar, they talked about not getting pregnant for 18 months after surgery, which is definitely not a problem!  But will gastric bypass make pregnancy hard on me?  My pregnancy with Chase was difficult, and I had a full stomach!

So, hopefully, I'll have that decided on Wednesday!  Wish me luck!

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