PurplePresident
Accountability
Feb 10, 2010
I am 11 months out and have fallen back into some of my old habits. I eat in front of the TV. I make poor food choices. I am not excercising. I don't measure or even consider portion size! My weight has been wavering fron 223 to 228
. I have come a long way from my presurgery weight of 333 and my highest of 480, but I am not at my goal of 170. I have got to get a grip and use my tool (ie. WLS) and lead the change not be a bystander! My issues are surfacing and I haven't dealt with them, I've started eating them again. I am guilty of grazing. I have started getting sick...really
sick... after eating because of my poor choices. This has got to change and only I have the power to make the change. Why do I continue to do things that feel soooo bad? God grant me the serentiy to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 
I have been less-than-half-heartedly trying to start a support group in the Winston-Salem area of North Carolina. My biggest hurdle is finding a location. I have contacted a few venues, but no one has returned my calls. I even have about 5 or 6 people interested in participating in this group! I have got to get a grip and take control!!!!!
I need others who share my experiences, who can hold me accountable, and life me up. People who I may be able to help and gain satisfaction in the knowledge that I can make a difference in the lives of others!I feel better now that I have confessed my "sins" and gotten it all out. Guilt and shame will NOT force me to go quietly back into a life of misery!!!!!!!!!!!!!
