Brenda C.

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Shaking my head.  I am growing tired.  Physically, mentally, and emotionally.  I haven't lost it, yet -- I am just tired.

Saw Dr Hunter today, and I am still fluctuating my weight 2 pounds.  He wants me to wait another month, go on the pre-bariatric diet -- which I am ALREADY ON -- and hopefully have another ten - twenty pounds lost.

I am pooped.  The last thing I want to do is cook, but I am hungry (we all do that fasting thing before seeing our docs - right?!)  I feel a little bummed, but not ready to throw in the towel. 

I have tons to do getting Mini Me ready for her Fall Quarter at school -- TONS to buy - oh goodie!  I am working with her financial aid office to get all her classes, required books and equipment.  When she hears she has just over two grand towards this quarter, she thinks she will have a bunch of money left over... NOPE!  Her book list is making me wince, I guess I forgot the "old days" when books didn't require you to put your "extra" organs on the donor list (just kidding, of course).  And her is the best part:  She wants everything by Friday - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  Considering I am spending a few days for my birthday in Canada, this is probably not going to happen!  She will have as much as I can get her by next week, otherwise her Instructor can yell at me ;)

Here goes nothing... Going to get (at least) ten pounds off before October 18th!
B  : )~

I just found out that I will be celebrating my Birthday in Canada  Woot, Woot, EH!  Living in the Pacific Northwest almost five years now, I have been to Canada twice, and strangely, it has been for my Birthday!  Maybe there are Cosmic Forces aiming me toward Canada???  Maybe next year those forces could aim me at, say, New Zealand, Fiji, or even Hawaii???

Today, it is rainy, but I am having an interesting afternoon with the wildlife.  Birds squawking, chirping, warbling, and a squirrel skittering around my front room window.  Making my cats very interested in the great outdoors!  I keep wondering how much longer I can keep my bird feeders out - as the weather just has not been "summer-like" this year.  Thinking of the coming winter months, I feel the urge to actually chop wood.  Having had a 80 foot fir brought down in my front yard, I have rounds to do with as I will - why not have some fun with it?  Exercise, possibly a commodity I can cash in on, and makes me feel vital.

Saturday is the big Walk From Obesity - it is supposed to rain, but you can never believe the weather reports!  Today, it was supposed to be maybe 30 percent chance of rain, then it was 70 percent, it started raining around 1:30pm - ha ha!  The rain wasn't supposed to be here until tomorrow, but now, it looks like it is a day early.  At least if the rain comes on Saturday, there will be little chance of overheating!  See, I can have a positive outlook!

The scale is being rude to me.  Two weeks ago, I gained, one week ago - a big loss.  This week another gain, I wonder if it is merely how I am standing on the damn scale -- I will test my theory on Tuesday!  I'll weigh twice, without the nurse, so I can test my theory!  So I am plus or minus 444 - I sort of like that number.  Dunno.  I remember 202 standing out to me, and although this current weight is scary high, it is still an interesting number.  Oh, I am incorrect, I see the surgeon on Monday - so THAT is when I will test my theory!

My attitude is definitely starting to feel like I may never get a surgery date.  Hopefully, Monday, I will actually hear some news, as I just am starting feel like it's just never going to happen.  Having gotten my mindset ready for surgery back last December ('09), I have gone through many emotions.  I am starting to think if this surgeon doesn't give me a date, I may just put this "journey" on the back burner.  I will be in Hawaii all of February, so if my surgery doesn't happen by November, I will just postpone until mid 2011... I guess.  My eating is still going well - another reason I am questioning the scale.  I have been so aware of my eating, it blows my mind that I have had two weigh ins where I gained.  Oh well, more to ponder.

B  : )~

For anyone who has read my ramblings, I doubt the subject of PooP is going to shack anyone... I went SIX days, yes, six without relief.  UGH.  I had luckily seen my doc - the Primary one, not the surgeon - so she was concerned with my dilemma.

Having a long familial history of Thyroid Disease, it is not unheard of in my family to be a little constipated.  I have been a great believer in fiber, water, and LOTS of activity, as all these should keep one regular.  Nothing was working.  Doctor Fleming was concerned, she knows I take daily stool softeners, am great with water, and a good diet, so she suggested Fiber One Cereal.  I bought two boxes.

Fiber One Cereal is a product of General Mills, and if munched through the day, it has only 60 calories and over a third of the recommended fiber -- all in a half a cup.  Oh, and it tastes pretty good!  I got the "Original" flavor, as it had the most fiber and least calories.  Two grams of protein, pretty cool.  I'll let you all know how it works ;)

Saw my doctor on Thursday, she is fabulous!  We talked about all my issues, drew blood, made recommendations, and get this -- CALLED ME PERSONALLY on Friday!  Dang!  My blood work looked real good.  Told me to go back down to the 250 mcg of Levothyroxin - was up to 275 mcg when my last blood test showed I was needing a "little more". It probably explains the last two periods lasting two weeks - aha!  I got some "drugs" for my ankle - and I promised to not abuse them.  She asked what was going on with my surgery plans, so told her I see the surgeon on the 20th of this month.  She offered to write a letter to Dr Hunter - hope it shows I will be a good patient.  She also is worried about the Walk From Obesity coming on Saturday.  I told her I promise NOT to push myself, that I will stop if it hurts.

Wow, Summer is already over, and it never really felt like it ever started...
B  : )~

I am registered to Walk From Obesity, and looking for donations -- if you feel like tossing a couple bucks to the resaerch - here is the link:  (If the link isn't working - would not for me - copy & paste to a new tab)

http://walkfromobesity.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=432526&lis=1&kntae432526=63151E9D71FB4178A0E5467E313DE567&supId=302899175

Just add to Brenda Carroll -- and I promise to Thank ALL Donors!!!

The Walk is September 18th, 2010 in Federal Way, Washington.  My Group is South Puget Sound (SPS), so far we have 4 Walkers ;)

On the Weigh In Front:  Thirty Pounds LOST... Pushing for another ten before surgery.

B  : )~