Fup, My Most Hated Villain...

Jun 01, 2011

The weather in Seattle is often less sunny then you might expect, so I have learned to keep sweaters in the rotation of any season.  Today is one of those "Is this REALLY Spring?!?" days, so I figured I better dress accordingly.  Jeans and a blue turtle neck sweater is what came out of the closet this morning.  I was grumbling at the sweater, no fault of its own, it just isn't as long as I wish it could be.  This particular sweater is a really good color on me, but I have what I call "FUP" - what I call my fat apron or panus.

Well, I was incorrect!  The sweater is a 4X, and I just assumed I am still in that range of sizing on my lower half, so I expected my panus to just "fup" out & say hello to the world.  My sweater fully covered the one part of my body I have always had a difficult time accepting.  I know, I try to be positive about most things, but I do have to draw the line at my "fup".  The funny thing, I have been swimming so hard that my butt is actually shrinking faster than my "fup".  Oh cruel reality!  Can it be possible I will lose my derriere (the one thing I always thought looked pretty good, no matter how fat I got), before I lose my dreaded "fup"?  Grumble, grumble...

So, I actually stood, TWICE, in front of the mirror, admiring the work I have been doing & that is really starting to show.  Nothing like knowing you look good, and you feel it! 

All I can do is remember my mother telling me about this article she read about Christie Brinkley, "See, she doesn't like her butt, and she is a super model..."  Oh yeah, well how does she feel about "Fup"?!  The point I am getting to is this, there will always be at least one aspect of your body that you will have a difficult time accepting.  My "fup" has been with me a very long time now, I accept it, don't particularly like it, but it still is a part of me.

Brenda : )~

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