This Week is Almost a Memory...

Oct 12, 2012

I have had a difficult week, and all I can do is sigh.  It has been an unusually difficult year for me, and trust me, I have moments where I want to just give up & stay in bed all day.  Monday, I spent the day with my 18 year old cat Trixie.  I shared my kitty's last day in the sunshine, petting her and making sure she felt the love.  I have given myself a little room to deal with grief, but I keep reminding myself to push forward.  The sun has a bad habit of leaving the Pacific Northwest as soon as Autumn hits - so I think having a sunny day was extra special Monday.  I may take some of her ashes back to Hawaii, just so she can enjoy the sun -- her favorite thing ;)

Tuesday, I had such swollen eyes, I had to put aside my swimming for a second day in a row.  But Wednesday, I was back in the pool, working toward the goal I set for myself.  As of this posting, I have swam 491 miles, and I will keep going even after I hit the magic 600 miles, because I know I can.

Life is not supposed to be easy, so you have to remember that with the bad times, good times will follow.  Never be too hard on yourself, as we usually are our own worst critic.  If you treat yourself with kindness and firmness, you will only flourish.  Yup, I guess I learned a lot raising myself (most of my generation knows about the single parent house blues).  My pushing myself forward is what keeps me going.  Sure, I have had my moments where I really needed to hide for a day (sometimes longer), but I also know I am the one person who can keep me looking forward.  Remember, you spend more time with YOU, than any other person.

Why am I sharing this with anyone bothering to read my blog?  To show that if you let life get you down, you only have you to blame.  If you face life with determination, you will have YOU to thank!  As always, Stay Positive!

Brenda : )~

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