Things fall Apart, 9 months -132

Dec 10, 2009

hey guys,

I lost the baby at 17 weeks, I kinda had mixed emotions, I knew that being pregnant so early on in my surg could be detrimental, but I chose to bring this life into the world inspite of the risk. I know God doesn't make mistakes and it wasnt our time. My hubby took it really hard. I don't like seeing such a strong man cry. Im feeling alot better and i have learned that a "missed miscarriage" is alot more common than once thought. We werent planning on this pregnancy yet we have decided to wait until im a year and several months post op before attempting again...(we still practice everyday..lol)

I had gained about 3 lbs during the pregnancy and was advised to cut back on such agressive excercise. I did it for the baby and now that I have lost him, my appetite is back to normal (no more cravings...yes!) and I can excercise. I instantly dropped 10lbs in a week after the procedure and I lost another 2 in the weeks prior to this post!!

God has blessed me with this tool but i am concerned that the cravings for carbs I had during the pregnancy have remained. I never missed bread, pasta, cereal post op and that is all i wanted pregnant. Now I dont eat it as much but I di eat it and that concerns me, because carbs can stretch my pouchie!

I had a very Happy Thanksgiving, cooking EVERYTHING, (a way to keep my mind occupied off the death of my lil sister in April and the loss of my baby in November) I laid it down and my hubby thought i shouldnt have done it all by myself but he damn sure ate everything I cooked!!  i didnt have an appetite after all that cooking, but I will admit i gave into the temptation to eat some chitterlings and cornbread with pot likker! I had too!! and it went down fine and I was good! Im in a size 15/16 in tops and 16 in pants! I am so blessed and i have had the opportunity to educated others and share my story. My friend Cheryl just had the surgery tuesday with Dr Afram and I am so happy for her!

GOD IS STILL IN THE BLESSING BUSINESS!!

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