Alcohol...

Apr 21, 2013

*sigh* I've been drinking quite a bit lately and it's starting to worry me. Usually (pre-op)  I would just drink once or twice during the weekend, but lately I've been having a drink here and there more frequently. Friday night I had two glasses of Pink Moscato and I was smashed. The part that bothers me is that I was alone, it's not like I was social drinking or anything. I think I just wanted to get drunk cause I was lonely and sad that everyone else was out partying and I was at home watching Star Trek. :/ 
I had another drink today too (Sunny D and Malibu) and it's not even past 2. 
I dk. I think I'm gonna go back to my psychologist and talk to her about all this. I don't wanna become one of those people who develop a transfer addiction...I know I already struggled with alcohol last year for awhile, but I thought I had kicked it...
I dont know. I know I need to start talking with someone though. 
The weird thing is, I've still been losing though. Even more so lately it seems like. The dumb part of my brain keeps saying it's because of the alcohol (WTF BRAIN), but I know that's not true AT ALL. Ugh. Get it together, Sophia. :/ 

cw: 227.8
total loss since day of surgery: -21lbs

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