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After a very late night of staying up last night, I work up at about 8 to let the dogs out and then went back to bed until 1.  It felt great to sleep in and was the most sleep I have gotten in over a week with pre-surgery jitters and the absolute impossibility of sleep in the hospital. 

For some reason I have been completely and inexcusably agitated today.  Everything people say is driving me nuts and I just dont want to talk about or think about the surgery but can't seem to escape every thought and word being about it.  I'm snapping at people for no reason, fighting with my husband and being rude to my mom.  I know I'm just crabby but I just want everyone to go away and leave me alone!  I'm in "baby" mode and if people aren't going to baby me I don't want to be around them.  I hate when I get like this.

My pain levels have actually been pretty moderate today.  I haven't taken anything since this morning but still have these intense hunger cravings constantly.  No matter what I drink or eat they don't go away.  Everyone on the message boards says it's not possible for it to be "real" hunger but I can't imagine that a psychological reaction would be so strong.  I'm starving!  

I tried to leave the house for a little while today but ended up having to come back home after only half hour because I was feeling dizzy.  I'm going stir crazy so am going to try again tomorrow.  On the plus side, I bought a new pair of comfy athletic shorts and two new pairs of flip flops while I was out.  When I got home, I felt like crap so took a nap for awhile.  My hubby made me some broth and a protein shake for dinner and although I am still hungry, I couldn't eat any more of it.  Eating and drinking too much just makes me gassy and uncomfortable.  Heck, eating and drinking anything makes me gassy and uncomfortable.  

I weighed myself this morning and have lost 8 pounds already.  It's crazy how quick it falls off but I still feel miserable and don't see any end in sight for my discomfort.  If I can just make it through the first month, it will be ok.  Heck, the first week will be an iimprovement. 

So that's day four; crabby, hungry and full of gas.  Hopefully day 5 will have a more optimistic end.

Today I am three days post surgery and feeling more emotion, discomfort and exhaustion than I expected.  I had my surgery on Wednesday morning with Dr. Kelly at United Hospital in St. Paul.  The surgery was scheduled bright and early for 7:30 am and after a few delays due to dehydration and the IV, they wheeled me into the O.R.  My last thougths were "why aren't I sleeping yet?" and I think I fell asleep in the middle of asking the nurse.  

After a few hours in the OR, I woke up in recovery with a few problems breathing.  After I explained my sleep apnea and use of mouth gaurd to them, they calmed down a little and released me to my room.  The first day/day of surgery went awesome.  I felt like a million bucks and kept thinking "wow, why didn't I do this sooner?"  The second day I felt a little more sore and by the third day, Friday, I was supposed to go home but was feeling like crap.  Apparently one of the things it's easy to ignore is the problems you might have with gas and passing it.  I had the WORST ever cramps in my stomach and would have rated my pain about an 8.  It was horrible and they had me stay another night until I was feeling better.  I finally got some good sleep this night, sleeping at one point for an entire 4 hour stretch!  Glorious!  

Saturday morning I woke up and was feeling a little more in tune with my new gastroentestinal system.  Getting better rest the night before helped give me a little more energy, as well.  Thankfully they didn't even make me wait around for the doctor to do his rounds, as I was doing so much better. 

At this point I have been home a few hours.  I got some of my stuff put away (it just helps to move around), took a nice three hour nap, drank a few cc's of PowerAid Zero and then took a walk around the block.  I'm thinking it might be time for another pain med, as I can feel the gas building up.  Thankfully my gastro system has been allowing for "release" finally!  The small things in life are such victories today (and I suspect for awhile to come :)  

Emotionally, I'm stuck at ok.  I know in the long run I will start feeling a lot better and a lot more energetic.  For now, however, I really miss "real" food.  I'm "hungry" although having trouble determining what is hunger and what is cramps.  Maybe I'm just cramping.  There's definitely some emotional hijiks going on, too...what I wouldn't give for some burger king, right now!  

Anyways, that's it for me three days post.  Hopefully I'll feel a little better tomorrow and in the coming weeks.  We can only hope!