Day 4...my first full day at home

Jul 31, 2011

After a very late night of staying up last night, I work up at about 8 to let the dogs out and then went back to bed until 1.  It felt great to sleep in and was the most sleep I have gotten in over a week with pre-surgery jitters and the absolute impossibility of sleep in the hospital. 

For some reason I have been completely and inexcusably agitated today.  Everything people say is driving me nuts and I just dont want to talk about or think about the surgery but can't seem to escape every thought and word being about it.  I'm snapping at people for no reason, fighting with my husband and being rude to my mom.  I know I'm just crabby but I just want everyone to go away and leave me alone!  I'm in "baby" mode and if people aren't going to baby me I don't want to be around them.  I hate when I get like this.

My pain levels have actually been pretty moderate today.  I haven't taken anything since this morning but still have these intense hunger cravings constantly.  No matter what I drink or eat they don't go away.  Everyone on the message boards says it's not possible for it to be "real" hunger but I can't imagine that a psychological reaction would be so strong.  I'm starving!  

I tried to leave the house for a little while today but ended up having to come back home after only half hour because I was feeling dizzy.  I'm going stir crazy so am going to try again tomorrow.  On the plus side, I bought a new pair of comfy athletic shorts and two new pairs of flip flops while I was out.  When I got home, I felt like crap so took a nap for awhile.  My hubby made me some broth and a protein shake for dinner and although I am still hungry, I couldn't eat any more of it.  Eating and drinking too much just makes me gassy and uncomfortable.  Heck, eating and drinking anything makes me gassy and uncomfortable.  

I weighed myself this morning and have lost 8 pounds already.  It's crazy how quick it falls off but I still feel miserable and don't see any end in sight for my discomfort.  If I can just make it through the first month, it will be ok.  Heck, the first week will be an iimprovement. 

So that's day four; crabby, hungry and full of gas.  Hopefully day 5 will have a more optimistic end.

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