As I sit here and look at the clock, I watch the morning come but to me it's another minute on my computer. The right hand corner is a place all too familiar in my day so I don't have to peek up and look for the clock ahead of me. It's 6:10 A:M and I have yet to sleep. I have decided to inform the outcome of my appointment.
I left early for my consult last week around 5 am. My 1st appointment was around 7:30 to get a CatScan. The lady was one of the sweetest people I have ever met in Radiology. She knew nothing of me but she complimented me as to saying I'm cute.. Altho I didn't believe her or anyone else mind you.. I smiled and thanked her and then she politely asked if I have considered Gastric Bypass lol. Was a shock for her to hear my tale in a nutshell and learn I was bigger before than the big person she was squeezing into her machine now. It didn't hurt so bad but the worst came after. We then immediately went to the upstair Radiology and had to get X-Rays on my spine. The young guy knew me from my 5 month hospital stay so that was nice to have a familiar. What killed me was having to turn for the x-ray onto my side. It was metal, cold, and hard on my body.. I wanted to die.
After "brunch', we were able to see my Surgeon. He was very polite and to the point. First the good news.. He will do the surgery and if nothing goes wrong then therapy could possibly finally get me walking.. well I did say IF so here is the rest of the news..
My Gastric Surgeon will consult with him and see if we can go through them both so if he says no then I'm screwed.
My surgeon also notifies me that this surgeon will not be Laproscopic.. no instead I will have a hug cut on my hip that is very long and goes over into the butt. So yeah this has gotten scary as hell now because these cuts are gonna be huge!.. but anyways he says they will also require I have Radiation before or after the surgery so it never grows back.. Hmm I was wondering why he required that treatment.. then I looked up my mass online and found most of the Info on a Cancer website. So basically I have the lowest form of Heterotopic Ossification so it can't kill me just paralyze me. There are worse that turn their body into bone and kills them like the Elephant Man. Anyways.. We were like okay so will I be okay after all this and he said the biggest risk is what he found from my Cat Scan.. My Bonemass has grown around my Sciatic Nerves.. so IF and this is the IF..while removing the mass he cuts it, I can be A. Temporarily Paralyzed until it grows back or B. it dies and I never ever walk again. So I am scared to death of that but still gonna do this.
So we are gonna get me checked for Blood Clots and now I have to get a tube shoved in my baby maker to make sure I won't have problems getting ANOTHER Cathedar Grrrrr.. sooo dang Painful!! *rips hair out* anyways..
We asked him when he thinks this will all happen and how long to recover.. Basically if my insurance approves and my stomach surgeon approves then we are looking at sometime in November.. no dates yet but I still have much to get done. But as well all know my Insurance can screw with me like my Gastric and make me wait another year. The Government is a blessing and a curse.. they toy with us like puppets and choose who to save and who to let die.
So now he says the recovery is up to me.. he said my Diet is Great and I don't have to lose any weight BUt to stay healthy and get as Strong as possible.. I have been slacking this past week because I am letting stress get to me but I gotta get myself back up.. I am now lifting 58-59 lbs when I do my weightlifts and I am gettin a Lot stronger. I even do Tae Bo videos once in awhile which should be more often lol.. I can be bad too ya know!
So I don't know what the road ahead of me holds.. I do know that I want out of my prison.. I don't care if I have to crawl or sit in a dang chair forever.. just please let me end this chapter of my life.. I really wanna move on now. I think I have enough to help people now.
Please email me at UsedToBe803@yahoo.com if you wish to contact me. I am very nervous and scared so hearing from my friends gets me by..
God Bless, please pray for me and I Love You ALL!!
P.S. I am now Reverend Minister Jeremy D. Norman!!!!!!!