sunflower74
Long over due update
Mar 10, 2015
So it's been quite a while since I have been active on here. Much has happened in the past few year and for those that are interested in my journey...well...here it is. A few months out of my VSG surgery and I unexpectedly got pregnant. This is where the trouble wit my weight came back. Being pregnant and newly sleeved I really didn't make the best choices. Luckily because I was still new to the sleeve there was enough restriction that weight gain during pregnancy was minimal. Sadly, once my little man came into this world, the weight slowly and then not so slowly crept back on. How? Well... combine not fully healing (mentally) with a newborn AND an abusive husband left me terribly depressed and all bets were off. I ate as I pleased, whatever, whenever and how much ever, no matter how much discomfort it caused. Not good. Nope, not one bit. Hear me out, I am not shrugging off responsibility here. I made the choices, I ate the foods, I sat around instead of exercising, it was all in my control. Remember that folks. Not matter how dire you situation my seem at the time, you are still in control of the choices you make. YOU.
So fast forward a bit.... I get a divorce and face a whole new world. A new reality. A new life. Man it was some scary and confusing shit. Pardon my "french", but dang. The good thing is I learned a lot. I learned about myself and life in general. I came out stronger and finally came to a point that it is time to take control once again. So here I am. Back on the boards, mostly just lurking...although that makes me sound like a creepy person, but I really don't post right now, except for today, asking for a good food chart. Other than that I am working behind the scenes to get things done. My kid is healthy, I am relatively healthy (aside from my weight) and things are going well. Luckily I havent gained it all back. How much I gained is yet to be determined. See, I have this scale, and it was made by the dark lord himself. That is correct. My evil scale, which is now in the trash, would have me gaining 3 lbs, then lose 10, then gain back 7 and so on, EVERY TIME you step on it. Crazy. It was fairly accurate for a while which is why I held on to it for so long. WHo knows whats up with that thing and I don't care. It's in the trash and a new on is on the way.
Here is a little of what I learned during this chunk of time I have been away from the site... a sleeve can stretch. Mind you, it is not a terribly large stretch and I don't know how much it has stretched but to give an idea... freshly sleeved I could eat lets say... 1/2 - 3/4 of a McD double cheese burger. Calm down, I don't eat that crap, just using it as a guideline for size since most folks are familiar with that menu item. Today, if I were, I could easily eat the whole thing and a small order of fries. After that would be causing major discomfort.
I also noticed that the discomfort of eating too much, or getting to the full phase has dulled somewhat. I dare not push it to the point of no return, or should I say return, in the form of vomit...eww. The point is, stomach sensitivity is less. That means I have to really pay close attention to quantity or else I am eating too much.
Now I am to the point of day 2 on the 5 day pouch test. It also turned out that yesterday and today I am a bit ill so following it is really easy. I am starting to feel fuller faster too so I guess it is working. Tomorrow I start to eat soft foods again so I think that will be very telling. I'll post more on my progress and try to be more active on the boards.
