Summer R.
And Suddenly I Can Drink Again
Oct 09, 2012
Can I get a hallelujah and amen! I've been able to drink my water without feeling like someone was stabbing me in my chest! Finally the pain is gone! I'm one happy woman!I've had the flu for the past few days. Still I haven't vomited. But I'm paying for it in other ways yuck! I'm finally feeling better this evening. I even exercised tonight.
Today was my best friend's 26th birthday. And to celebrate her and her boyfriend and I did the Just Dance for over an hour. I was even kicking ass!
I'm still right around the 26 lb loss. That is starting to piss me off. I want the weight to fall off faster and I know I'm being crazy. I didn't put all this weight on over night, it's insane to think it's all going to fall off over night. That's the rational part of my brain...but the irrational part is screaming at me that I'm going to end up on the failed boards. I don't want to be on those boards!
I'm so angry that I don't dump. I'm angry that nothing makes the iron man pouch of mine upset. I wanted that constant reminder to "DONT DO THAT". I have a history of not being able to eat anything after it's made me ill. Two examples, mac and cheese and tortilla's while I was pregnant. Still over 12 years later it's hard to eat them, even thinking about eating them makes my tummy roll. And I'm not getting that "extra help". I can eat candy and be fine! WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THAT??? How is it that my body must always be the exception and never the rule?
I'm done whining. For now.
