First ride in a long time and seeing the old me in others

Jun 28, 2014

I just need to say after losing 73 pounds I was able to go on rides yesterday and not worry if I would fit. That might sound silly but it is big to me. Growing up as a large person is not easy. All your life you have to worry if a chair can hold you, if you can fit in a seat, if you eat something are people saying in their head "oh, no self control". In school I was picked on, pushed and beat up just because of my weight. I had no control so I ate for control. Since losing this weight - I still have about 40 more to go, I have found freedom. But sadly yesterday as I walked all over Great Adventure I saw images of my old self in people. Large women staying on the sidelines, making excuses to their dates, families and friends on why they do not want to go on the ride. They tell them I am scared, afraid of heights, ect. But really they probably are afraid that they will not fit in the seat. My heart hurt for them because I know how that felt. I wanted to pull a women on the side and tell her I understand but I changed my life, but I did not. Next time you see a large person at a amusement park, fair, or in school understand that they must feel ashamed and it is a painful life that was not chosen, but life got in the way an created it. Hopefully that person will find their way and get healthy, but making fun does not help only pushes you over more to the "dark side of eating".

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