The journey is underway...

Dec 01, 2009

Yesterday began the first day of my Optifast diet.  From now until my surgery date, I will be drinking my dinners, and not in any fun ways!  LOL!  I am drinking my required 8 glasses of water a day and my eyes are floating around in my head!  My mom pointed out to me yesterday that the next 3 weeks are going to be very busy for me and then it dawned on me that my surgery is scheduled for 3 weeks from tomorrow.  I know this sounds weird but I knew it, but I didn't.  Do you know what I mean?  I can't believe it's so close!  I mean, I've been working for this goal for almost 2 years now and it's finally here.  My life is going to change SO much!  I'm excited, nervous, scared, anxious...well, you get the idea.  Any emotion pretty much fits how I feel. 

I went to my first bari support meeting last Wednesday.  I met the 4 people who's surgery is scheduled around the same time as mine.  One of the ladies has hers on the same day as me, but hers is in the morning.  I wonder if we'll be sharing a room.  They told us more about preparing for the surgery and a little bit more of what to expect afterward.  I also found out that I'm supposed to be in the hospital for 2 nights instead of 1.  I'm not excited about spending x-mas in the hospital!  I thought I'd be home on Christmas Eve day.  I've talked with my kids and family, and everybody said that they're okay with it.  My kids are older, so it's not like Santa isn't going to come on x-mas eve or anything, but I still feel bad for disrupting my entire family's holiday.

Yesterday was the 6 week anniversary of becoming a non-smoker.  Now that I'm off the Chantix, it's getting harder to tell myself "No" but my hope is that I will continue to stay a non-smoker after the surgery and the healing is over.  One day at a time! 

I don't know about everybody else, but it sure feels like I'm giving up everything!  At this point, I have had to quit smoking, give up food, no drinking, no using straws, no caffeine, no pop/soda, and now they're telling me I have to quit using my hormones.  I'm either going to go totally wacko or grow the best go-tee in the nation!  Geeze!

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