tknow1978
Anticlimactic NSV
Sep 15, 2010
Post Date: 9/8/10 9:41 pmI feel like I should share this most awsome NSV, because I thought it would never happen. I was in need of a spinal fusion and told that I needed to lose weight first, with good reason. I have had 2 previous lumbar surgeries and didn't want this surgery to "fail" so quickly like the others. I had decided to have RNY before this arose, but with the help of my neurosurgeon got my surgery date moved up. Well tomorrow I was supposed to have my fusion. But 2 and 1/2 weeks ago the thing that I never thought possible began to happen. I woke up one morning and my leg pain from a "pinched" nerve was dramatically decreased. I didn't even let myself hope that I would improve. I was so scared of dissappointment, been there too many times. Over the next 2 weeks, as I was able to do more and more, my lower back pain and spasms began to improve as well. I finally let myself believe it could be possible and called my neurosurgeon. Now I am starting PT and surgery is cancelled. I was also released to go back to work (I had been out on medical leave since March 2010). I couldn't be more thrilled about this.
Here comes the anticlimactic part that makes this a little bittersweet. Don't get me wrong, I am pleased none the less. Well, when I called my work I found out that my position had been filled just the week before (I have well since exhausted all of my FMLA so I am no longer protected in that way). My workplace is more than generous and goes beyond the law in allowing for medical leave. Right now I am on what they call No Assigned Hours. I put in transfers to other departments, but if one is not accepted by the end of the month then I will be terminated. The bad thing is they just closed down a wing of the hospital I work at to do renovation and the nurses that worked there were re-distrubuted to most of the positions. I am in real jeopardy of losing my job. We luckily have other facilities in town, but we have a lot of schools nearby pumping out new nurses. I hate to be so whiney, but I will go on. I will most likely also experience a huge drop in income because I worked under a special contract before that is not often up for grabs. And I am worried about lapses in disability insurance, cost of COBRA, etc. I just hope I don't hurt myself somehow. Thanks for letting me vent.
I really am thankfull. I just got my hopes up that I would be able to go back to work. If I had had the fusion I would have lost my job for being out to long anyway. BTW, I am not looking for sympathy. I feel pathetic enough already, lol. I guess I just had to get this off my chest, but if anybody has any similar life experience do share how you got through it.
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Pensacola, FL
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45.6
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06/03/2010
Surgery Date
Dec 28, 2008
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