the wait

Oct 29, 2014

My last (pre-surgeon) appointment was just about 3 weeks ago, at that point I was told they would review my file as a group a few days later. I haven't heard a peep since, nor gotten any mail. Sooooo I'm just in limbo.

What else is happening...Going through some personal stuff and just trying to take care, take it easy, not stress-eat, and work out at least a couple times a week. Still seeing my counselor. Have had a diet pop here and there but mostly have stayed off the stuff (have had maybe 3 in as many months). My 1 year anniversary of quitting smoking is next week, which I am very proud of. Haven't had any alcohol in months, over the summer I had maybe 5-6 drinks total, spread out with weeks in between each. 

With emotionally upsetting news lately (family friends passing and other such bad news) plus the usual dip in energy due to the seasons change, it would be very easy to tip off the wagon for a day, an hour. But I am holding fast. Have had some small treats here and there (sugar free candy, the occasional slice or two of pizza) but overall my diet is very much changed. I try to do a little damage control if I am craving something high sugar or high fat and have a healthier version of that thing. Examples: instead of potato chips with creamy dip, I'll have popcorn or apple chips with almond butter or crackers with cheese or hummus. Instead of ice cream one night I bought some peanut butter chocolate cereal and had a bowl. Sugar free pudding is a good one, I like the cheescake SF pudding powder mixed into greek yogurt, or the pistachio SF jello pudding. Lots of Mio and other water flavors to stay off the pop. Better choices. Any time I think that I'm slipping or ate too much of something, I will remind myself hey! you haven't had any big bad foods in months: no ice cream, no candy, no fries, no doritos, no chips of any kind, no fast food, etc. That's huge. And when I am able to have the surgery I will be even better equipped with a tool to help me lose weight faster. 

So I just gotta wait.

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