Tonight is probably not the best night to blog because of my frame of mind - but I have time, so what the hey!
It is freezing cold and there's snow on the ground here. Hubby couldn't go to work today because he kept slipping and sliding trying to get out. I didn't start work until 10 am due to inclement weather closing office until 10 am. So I felt like I didn't get much done today. The kids school was closed today because of the ice/snow - so they were home all day which didn't help. (Although, they were surprisingly well behaved and quiet today which WAS good since I was working.)
I did make some fabulous supper, so that was good. I also spent all afternoon doing laundry and got a lot of that done there.
I looked through the forums here but didn't post hardly anything (once on the AR board). I've been cooling it lately on here. I had not been posting much over the last few months (1 because of lack of time and 2 because of lack of initiative). I actually had time (and less stress which helped with initative) to over the holidays, but I quickly tired of it.
I'm really annoyed with OH to be honest. Actually I'm annoyed with a lot of PEOPLE on OH too. I have no patience for ignorance and I have no patience for dishonesty - ESPECIALLY when it comes to something as important as a WLS journey (that can save your life).
I am sick of reading posts by ignorant people who have surgery thinking it will "fix" them without any change in behavior/thinking. It is absolutely SICKENING to come on here and see someone who is a week out post something like "I just ate fajita nachos and I'm supposed to still be on all liquids - HELP!" or "I'm 1 month post-op, just ate New Years dinner and it only took 1 grilled chicken breast and 1/2 cup of steamed vegetables to fill me up! I know that sounds like a lot, but I'd have eaten 10 times that last year - so I'm so proud of myself!" What a dumbass. I mean really, most of us were so bad off pre-op, it wouldn't take much to eat better than we did before. That's like a recovering alcoholic say he only had 1 3 beers tonight when he used to have 1 bottle of vodka, so he's so proud of himself. Hello. If you are a "recovering" alcoholic and you are already having 3 beers 1 month into your "recovery", how many do you think you will be back up to in a year, or two, or three?
I am sick of people who are so ignorant that they fear a surgery when the disease of obesity is far more likely to kill them than ANY surgery would. (I mean HELLO... the risk of death with RNY is the same as the risk of death from a hysterectomy. When a woman needs one of those you don't see her or the people around her trying to talk her out of it because she or they are afraid she's going to die. So why do that with RNY? It is either a: ignorance or b: an excuse - which is the same as dishonesty.)
I am sick of surgery wars. To me, if you didn't know about the DS prior to your surgery, you are too ignorant to have the DS. If you did something as life-altering as SURGERY without even reading up on the subject (and anyone who even types in weight loss surgery into google gets a DS website hit), then you are too stupid to have the DS and probably too stupid to have WLS in general. (That may get me a few REALLY nasty comments on here, but oh well. Bring it on. I mean what I say or I wouldn't type it here.) If you are smart enough to get onto this forum and talk about weight loss surgery, you are smart enough to have discovered the DS. It is NOT a mystery. There is no hidden agenda by surgeons to hide the DS, etc. My surgeon talked about ALL WLS procedures in his seminar, even those he didn't peform (including the DS, sleeve, etc). There is no conspiracy here. While we are on the subject of research and the DS, if I see one more pre-op referring to websites like dsfacts.com as "real", "medical" sources of information, I may have to point out what a dumbass they are. I guess I should start a website called rnyfacts.com and distort facts about RNY in comparison to other procedures and have all RNYers start referring other pre-ops to there like that is an actual medical website - when in fact it's just a website created by a fanatical post-op. But I digress.
I am sick of people being dishonest about their journey on here. I know for a FACT that we have a couple of people on the Arkansas board specifically who are regaining. They are avoiding the board for the most part and they are avoiding the real life support group. They're hiding out. They're ashamed and they are doing the LAST thing they need to be doing. If you fall off the wagon, the LAST thing you need to do is stop attending AA meetings. In fact, that is the BEST thing you can do if you start falling off the wagon (or in this case, regaining). If I ever start regaining, I'm going to be back on here every single night and at support group every single month. The last thing I'm going to do is start hiding out - unless of course I just don't care! But I can't see myself not caring.
I'm a little irritated too with my post-op PS swelling. I'll be 6 weeks out this Thursday. I am supposed to wear my support/compression garment for the 1st 4 - 6 weeks. I took it off at about 4.5 weeks because I hated it and was sick of it. My breasts are healing great and I don't notice swelling there - but I may be missing it because of the area. I can DEFINATELY tell that I am swollen above my anchor TT incision though. That's irritating.
I think I may be premenstrual or under an obscene amount of stress too. I couldn't hardly sleep last night and have been wanting to bite everyone's head off for the last day or 2. Hormones, maybe? I don't know. Oh well. Enough for now. I'll try to be more pleasant next time I blog.