Struggling Today - Surgury date postponed

May 05, 2010

Today is not a good day.  I feel very detached & depressed and have actually cried 4 times since I woke up.

Last night, around 7:30pm, I learned that my surgury date has been postponed from May 10th to May 14th.  That might not be a big deal except for the following facts:

1.  I have been on a liquid diet (protien shakes, SF jello, and SF popscicles) since Sunday April 25th.  This will mean 19 days before surgury instead of 14.

2. My birthday is May 12th.  So instead of having a lovely strained creamy soup for my birthday dinner with a dessert of peach yogurt smoothie, I'll be having...you guessed it...another protien shake.

3.  I will miss my friend's baby shower on the 14th and my niece's bridal shower on the 15th.  I was planning to attend both, even for just a quick apperience to present my gift, but I can't imagine that I can leave the hospital and go straight to a baby shower.

4.  I had to stop working out, which I really enjoy and is so very good for me, because I'm light-headed when I do!  I've also had more headaches and even 2 migraines since I started the liquid diet than I've had in months.

5. I can't get the AWEFUL TASTE of these protien shakes out of my mouth!

I know I need to dwell on the positive - I'm preparing for a life changing event and the outcome will be better than all the pain/discomfort/disappointment I'm going through right now, but it still SUCKS!!!

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