hello kelli you are so sweet,thank you for the post and the encouraging words it means alot to me.i feel this way don't feel sorry for myself others need love and support your not the only one on earth lol.and i do have alot of love to offer and if i can help anybody out i am there.i see you have been through a rough time your self but you took the time to think of me that is so sweet.it also sounds like you are very close to your daughters too that is super.and the more you do with them the more memories you store in thier hearts.i always been close to my children but the loss of my middle child i had become even more close to my other 2 children.for every second counts and means something to them in thier life.so keep those memories building.and i pray you have a successful surgery and a super speedy recovery,love ya your friend bonnie,p.s. thank you everyone for all your love and support you all so amazing.