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A start to a new me.

Nov 06, 2011

OK you guys I'm pretty much going into my 3rd week since surgery and its been a crazy ride so far. i know i can do this, after talking to some people and my dietitian I'm not worry any more about why I'm not losing a lot of weight fast.  since surgery I've only lost about 4lbs but all together I've lost about 20lb and with me starting to working out I've also lost a total of 18 inches from my starting size before surgery. so even though I'm not losing pounds fast hell I'm losing something lol..

Now, I'm starting something different since talking to my dietitian and asking her what food is OK to eat after surgery, well the funny thing is that she gave me the OK to jump up a notch so i did. don't get me to wrong I'm still in my means of the program but I'm just trying to see what other or try to see what foods i can eat without any issues..

so far I'm doing good. i started my 3rd week of soft food a little bit early and everything is going good. I'm keeping my intake small as well as keeping a eye out on my sodium, protein, carbs, and total calories intake. I'm basing my new diet off 1500 cal. which to me honest is really high for me right now.. cause il be happy if i make it to 800 cal.

but all in all I'm happy and even though this is a long journey i have I'm proud of myself..
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First week out

Nov 03, 2011

Where to begin I am 8 days out since my sleeve gastrectomy surgery, and I honestly haven’t had any real thought about it. But now today at 2 am in the morning I’m having self doubt about myself. yall I don’t even know where this is coming from. I pose to be happy and ready and prepared but I can’t ……. What is going on... I was happy for like 2 days after surgery but now it’s like I feel no scratch that I fear that I’m not make it through this journey I set forth for myself.. Is this normal?... Can anyone help give me some advice…..? I mean I have the support my family has been good so far even my ex boyfriend been pretty well about support... I know this pose to be a tool, but now that I had the surgery I have soooo many question now and it seem like no one to talk to… Yall is this a normal feeling, can someone help…
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2 Days Before Surgery

Oct 24, 2011

Today is Monday, October 24, 2011.

I feel like it's the first day of the beginning of a new life.  Why?  My surgery is scheduled for Wednesday - October 26th - 2 days to go.

My story is simple - I'm obese.

Obese is a word that I've never used.  Growing up was not easy. I've been a big girl almost all of my life. In school, I would be picked on because of my weight. It wasn't until high school when I joined the swim team and the co-captain of the step team was when I was able to show what a big girl could actually do . I was shown more respect. With that lesson, I learned to love myself more.  After high school, I met more overweight people and found them to be comfortable in their own skin.  I've been a Fine Big Girl, thanks to Monique, and other adjectives that said it's acceptable to be overweight.  I haven't had any rejection issues because I've taken control of my space and who I allowed in my space.  For example, I only friended other overweight females.  Or, I just do me.  I take care of nails, feet, and hair and that made me feel good. 

Men, that's a different story.  Yes, I have been rejected/overlooked.  After the high school experience of earning respect, I became a more confident Big Girl.  I developed a certain sassy attitude to match.  Now I realize that is how I coped. 

Since going to school for nursing and developing high blood pressure myself, I've seen first hand and experienced what obesity is doing to my body and health.  Reality didn't sink in until I saw my weight at almost 400 lbs.  That's when I knew and decided to do something.  

I never thought about doing weight loss surgery until my externship at St Alexis Newstart Bariactric Center.  Here, I was able to meet, see, and hear about everything - different procedures, how it affected different people.  I guess you can say - I had an upper hand advantage.  It helped a lot to talk to different people about the surgery and influenced my decision to have the surgery.   

My fear about the weight loss surgery is:

How will I feel? 
Will I think this was right for me?
After my 6 mos. post op - How will I look? 
How will I feel about my saggy skin?

The doctor and friends tell me that I shouldn't have a problem with saggy skin because I'm only 23 yrs. old.  But let's be real??

I'm writing this post to open a dialogue that will allow us to discuss different things.  
1.  I would appreciate a conversation with anyone having had similar experiences or fears. 
2.  I'd like to hear if you feel that I've sold out or if I've made the best decision for me. 
3.  I want to know about your saggy skin experience. 
4.  For those who opted to not have plastic surgery - how did you resolve the problem or did you?
5.  For those who opted to have plastic surgery, how much did it cost and how long after surgery did you have it done?   
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