Sigh - long week.....

Jul 22, 2011

So, this has been a roller coaster last week and half at work.  The company I work for re-structured the divisions and that meant layoffs.  While I was not one of them, I do have extreme survivors guilt.  Several of my co-workers whom I consider dear friends and family, lost their jobs.  There has been a lot of crying and emotional turmoil going on in the office.  I have desperately been trying to not stress/emotional eat because I know that I will not be able to do this (or shouldn't do this) after surgery.  It has been hard to say the least.  

One of the things that they are doing to restructure the divisions is to close our regional office and move us home.  I will officially be a telecommuter as soon as I finish with July month end close and return from my surgery.  I am so conflicted about this for several reasons.  First, there will be limited social interaction and I worry about that.  I worry that I will eat from boredom and have been trying to think of things I can do to break up the day, i.e. exercise videos, taking walks when it isn't freezing outside etc.  This is not going to be easy and I am going to have to be extra vigilant to make sure I don't have my weakness foods in the house.  Second, I am actually happy that I do not have to have people watching my every move when it comes to food, but then again am worried that this will let me slide (lack of accountability?).  I will have to be extra careful about this as well.  Lastly, at least I won't have to buy two sets of clothing on my way down the scale so this is a plus, I guess.  

Anyhow, I am just sad this week.  It has been a difficult week all around.  Sigh.

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