Day one

Mar 29, 2017

First entry- 

About a week and a half ago I started really "feeling" my weight. I already have chronic pain, but now I've added restless legs & tremendous foot pain to that ever growing list of ailments. A friend of mine (we'll call her "K") had gastric bypass a few years ago & this weekend I started asking questions about her journey.  K told me about her being "one bad breakup from 400lb" and her daily struggles to just walk across a room. I totally related. I loved to camp, but I now dread all of the prep & tear down- and the inability to walk even the easiest trails. So, I let our conversation sink in for a few days. Then it "clicked". I've had lots of surgeries (hysterectomy, bowel resection, and wisdom teeth just to name a few). I asked myself- how is this any different? I've had all these surgeries to better my quality of life, yet this one was never on the table- until now. I thought I should be able to loose weight on my own (lost 35lb from a hospital dietary program- and then gained that back and then some). But I'm realizing now that this is a medical condition that I will never conquer alone. It's time to get the pros involved. 

I'm in the very wee stages of preparing for a surgery I now know I need. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately, seeing how quickly I like to get things done), I won't have insurance that will cover it until next year. The insurance company I'll be with won't answer any of my questions regarding prerequisites until I am a member. So in the meantime I'm going to post here, and hopefully feel supported in my decision. 

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