I tried to do this twice already and everytime i did i lost it ,my puter went down two days ago and ate it again,,the service has ben acting up for a while now,,they came and fixed it yesterday,,so we will see if i don't lose this one,,here goes,,,,,
I am 56 yrs old i wiegh 290 with a bmi of 50 (not good),, i a a native New Yorker,bronx born and raised,,i moved around alot during my life,,had three children all girls and now have 12 or 13 grandkids,,i can't keep up really,,LOL,,my girls are scatered across the country some in St louis ,one in Penn,,all of my imediate family are in New York..My Guy and i lived here in alabama now for 3 yrs we have been together for about 15 yrs now just he and i and our two cats,,I am a loner at heart,,i have no social cicle to speak of,it just has never been me,,i have been stricken with a very agressive arthitis, and have been in and out of treatments for it to no avail,i fell a few times at work and went from being an asest to a liability in 2 months time,, my Doctor then put me on disability that was in 2007 and here i sit on social security and disability,soooo anyway as the pain got worse so did the wieght,since i was no longer moving around,it was somethng i never planned on ,,but hey is it ever,,at some point i just stopped caring,my whole life had changed,i think it was trying to make myself accept the "disabled" label that thru me down,,its so not who i am,,
the last couple of years i went totaly wtf!!,,i guess i was really sayin i am ready to die,,,there really is a limit one can get up everymorning knowing your going to hurt like this all day,, i do try to keep a good attitude about it,,my quote for my life when asked how i'm doin' is "hey everyday is an adventure",,i am mostly an upbeat person and tend to not let things beat me,,but no doctors had the answer,,I was stumped,i was nolonger in control,so i went back to something i did in times like this,,,,i prayed
as i said earliar,,i was lead to this Dr by very odd circumstances and folowed it right thru and i am so glad i did,,i have hope where there was non before,,lossing hope is the worst feeling in the world,,one should always have that no matter what,,the world will beat you down if you let it,,and i let myself forget that,,i won't foget it anymore,,so here i am pickn up the pieces,gettin back on my hind legs, pullin my drawers up and procceeding on with my journey,,,welcome
