Idahocowgirl3890
Im 25, My name Is Jessica. I have been struggling with my weight for about 6 years now. It really happened just before i got pregnant. I was suffering from depression, after high school my life changed alot, and I was overwhelmed with the results of my poor choices, and the people who let me down, so I turned to food. Because in my head food never did me wrong. Food was always there, and comforted me. Looking back now, Food, or rather the way I USED food, was the number one thing that did me wrong in my life. As a result I fluctuated in weight for a few months, and then I became pregnant. Out of wed-lock to boot. I was terrified of my parents reactions, other peoples, and even just what my future held. I had become pregnant by someone I did NOT think was reliable, nor a good choice of a father. I chose to stick it out, and when he asked me to marry him I felt that it was the "right thing" to do. and so off i went. We moved to another state I had never been to, where i had no friends. and had no job. I slowly crept back into my massive depressive state, and for me with depression comes poor food choices. Not only was I alone in this new place, my husband was out cheating on me with anyone and everyone he could get to. He was also poor with his money choices and we often went without food, for weeks on end. I became a binge eater as a result. whenever we would haev enough money for food I would eat as much as i could in one sitting. I chose for almost two years not to do anything about it but be miserable with my life. I had countless opportunities to walk out and leave but i chose to stay. I gave too many chances, to someone who cared nothing about me or my child.
Finally I chose to leave. It was the most scary, yet happy choice I had ever made. I have now been divorced for 4 years. I have met an amazing man, who supports me whole heartedly, and is the best father for my son I could ask for. I am currently living with family.. but my life is going forward in a good way. I let depression, doubt and fear rule my life for too long, and Im fianlly taking it back in full force. I will not let my weight hold me back or steal my joy.
I chose to have this surgery after years of trying to lose weight but only losing about 20LBs and then bouncing back into my old habits. Im exccited for this journey and to get back to my body where i was most happy. I am excited to not only be "skinny" but to be FIT. I have always been very active and strong and I am so excited to finally get back to showing off my body in that way. Building new muscle, and maintaining this new lifestyle. I have many supporters in my life. And I cant wait to give my son the best years of his life, because I will be able to be the best mom that I can be for him. My new life is just beginning. And I cant wait to share it with you all :)
About Me
Before & After
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