3 Years....

Feb 23, 2012

Today I celebrate three years, I like to think of this day as my birthday. Last night I realized that I would be 3 years post-op,at first I wasn't  happy about the occasion because I have not reached  my weight loss  goal( due to me being comfortable). As last night became today, I thought of those that started with me, those that had not made the choice, and those who are struggling.

This journey has been filled with  ups,downs, and self discoveries. God has shown me favor, even when I was in the mist of wilding out. I have gone from being a dedicated gym rat -clubbing-drinker- and now I give ALL my time to GOD, my family, and my business.

Gym Rat to Drinking
Before my surgery and 2 years after my surgery you couldn't pay me to stay out of the gym. I wanted to be there more than I wanted to be at home. This was home! I wanted to exercise more than I wanted to eat. The results were amazing. i looked and felt GREAT. While discovering this new outer image I also discovered that there were other things I was missing out on because I was always at the gym.......that thing was partying & drinking! (those of you reading this please understanding this was NOT a defining moment in my life). For an entire year my nights consisted of partying and drinking with so called friends. As patients we were told that we should NOT consume alcohol....this is true. My life began to do a downward spiral....OMG! Everything around me was out of place;my family, religion, business, and friends. Quickly I had to make an adjustment.

GOD FIRST
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Life is full of challenges....you get out what you put in!!!!

Jan 15, 2010

01/15/2009
It's been awhile since I've posted anything....My surgery has been filled with challenges most of them good. I have transformed into a woman that I never thought I could ever be. I love myself more than ever. I have learned to put myself first and others after me. For the last fourteen years I've never really wanted to work, party, shop,exercise,  or anything else you could possibly think of.  Before I felt that everyone was staring at me,but now I know they are staring. It's so funny how people that never really paid me much attention somehow find me so interesting. There was this guy named D(is what we will call him) he would see me all the time when I was bigger, he knows me by name but when I would see him he never would speak. Now that I'm 137 lbs smaller he sees me in Walgreens, calls me by name then had the nerve to invite me to his party. Now when I see him he look me over with that eye(now that some BS). 

 I am no longer that girl that loves to communicate with others and hope they dont see me. I am 1 month and 7 days away from my 1 year anniversary. I have not met my weight goal, however Im working on it daily. It feels so good to say hello to me again.
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"My journey to freedom"

Apr 16, 2009

 

04/16/09

In the beginning I was totally against posting anything about me on this site, but as I began to read the different profiles of others, I've since changed my mind.

This is my story...
I'm am a 34 year old female, married with three sons. I'd been contemplating having gastric bypass for about 2 years before doing so on February 23,2009.

My life had become difficult and quite sad; viewing it through my own eyes, I was no longer the woman that I dreamed of becoming since gaining weight after my first, second and third son. I no longer wanted to work, shop, or take care of my husband and kids. Everything I did, I did because I had to not because I wanted to.

I decided I needed to make a change, the weight was turning me into a lonely, mean old lady. 

I went under my dr's care for the required six months, took the classes that were required by my surgeon(Dr. Stanish Methodist Hospital Restart Center). I received approval from my insurance company after the first request. I was scheduled for my bypass on February 23,2009@ 7:45a.m.


My journey.....

After surgery I was out of it like most, during the first 24 hours the nurses had me drinking an ounce of water and other clear liquids every 15 minutes( this didn't work out well).I also had to get up and move it  I had to walk for about 10 minutes quite often (my nurses were great).I was discharged after 3 days. My husband and kids were great, they were treating me like the queen I was born to be .(I love these guys)

My First Weeks....
My first weeks at home I didnt eat much, I was bored with the clear liquids, and full liquid diet. I couldnt eat any more soup or drink another protein shake yuck! Water, jello, and popsicles were my liquids of choice. I was later put on puree food for a week,then soft for 2 weeks then a regular diet. Now that I'm 6 weeks post opt, I've been cleared to return to normal activities which means back to the health club

How much weight.....

I started out at 362lbs Im now at 304lbs(04/16/2009) which means I've lost 58lbs in 6 weeks. This has not been a walk in a park. I have been going to the health club 4-5 days a week and trying to be in control of my food intake.

Clothes Size...
Im down to a size 28 some 26 in pants. My shirts are 22/24. Im hesitant about trying new clothes because Im afraid of getting disappointed

My Battles...

My battles have been my cravings. In the beginning I didnt crave anything at all. All I wanted was water, Crystal lite, and more popsicles. My appetite is slowly coming back. I've been able to consume 1/2 of a meal, nothing heavy just tuna, salad, fruit. I've tried eatting things like chicken, beef jerky, chips, and fries. My body totally rejects all of it, I get sick, my food feels as if it stuck, and I vomit not for minutes it last for about 2 hours if not longer. I later can drink water and those trusty popsicles(sugar free), I've also started to drink my protein shakes again (Muscle Milk Lite) My body has changed alot, but I think my mind has to catch up.

Vitamins...

My vitamin of choice has been the Optisource, I take a tablet four times daily. Optisource is a pretty good, it is also chewable.

A different ME!
Since my surgery Im feeling good. Its funny how during my weight gain I feared the numbers the would be displayed on the scale, I dreaded reaching 285lbs. now I look forward to weighing myself and the anticipation that I feel knowing I will reach 285lbs. again.

 

04/17/2009

Today was somewhat strange. I'm not sure if I informed you all of this in my previous blog, but I had some issues with my food. When I say issues I mean my mind was craving food but my body was rejecting it. I tried eating just because, I guess to test the waters to see if what they say would happen happens. I wanted some chips, I ate them, then I wanted some applesauce 5 to 7 minutes later, I ate it, I later decided I wanted to eat a slice or two of Carolina Honey Turkey so I tried to eat it. OH MY GOD! This was the biggest mistake I've ever made, not only did I get sick and have to vomit for most of the day I also had to use the bathroom. I didnt know which end was going to erupt. Today I still feel sick, I cant look at food. I tried to eat only because my stomach was talking to me. So I ate only 1/2 cup not the 1 cup my doctors says I should be eatting. As Im typing my food feels as if it stuck in the middle of my chest(I ate as slow as I could), this feeling is very uncomfortable and I cant drink anything. I have to wait until the feeling goes away. I guess this is my punishment for trying to push it. I've been slacking in my protein shakes and I can feel the difference. This surgery in not a joke. I still stand by, "My Brain Must Catch Up With My Body & Stomach". I hope tomorrow is a much better day.

04/18/09

Today was an okay day, I only ate salad & water was my drink of choice. Oh yeah I had some popcorn, I found out that was not a good choice.

04/21/09

Hello to All,

Man oh Man my days have been so busy. There isnt enough time in the day for me to do or say what's needed. I went to the health club on yesterday and had a heck of a workout. Tonite I'll do my sit-ups so I can get a hernia(lol). I often forget to feed my family dinner, I guess it's due to me not being hungry or is it because I just dont think about food as much.
Im trying to make sure I get my protein. Today I tried some blue bunny icream it was sooooo good I had my 1/2cup, who would have thought ice cream that low in fat and sugar could be so gooooood.(this isnt a good source of protein)

05/26/09
Hi guys, I haven't blogged in awhile but here goes nothing. My weeks have been filled with adventures. I go to the health club daily and I actually enjoy it. I never thought those words would ever exit my mouth. I can run 10 mins on the tredmill. I'll be a pro soon(lol) really I would like to run a marathon someday.

I went to the Restart center today I'm now down 80lbs.in 3 months. Oh my goodness. That is like carrying a 10yr. old child. I'm so excited about my journey. I'm learning more and more about what I can't have, some say sugar free candy is okay but I beg to differ. I tried to eat only half of a bit size of sugar free hershey's this piece of candy has 20 alcohol sugars so I ate half. I got really tired and sleepy after this small piece. I ate the other half today and the same thing happened needless to say I wont be eatting any sugarfree candy that has more that 2 sugar alcohol.
I can fit a size 26 pants with a little room, my shirts are maybe a solid 22 I haven't tried to go smaller because of my fears. I have no pants that fit and I refuse to purchase new ones. I've started to wear dresses again, they make me feel pretty. I will continue to update my profile more often. If you all have time please read more blogs of everyone journeys you will learn alot.  Peace

05/29/2009
Currently I'm sporting clothes that are either to big for me or my old work scrubs. I have gone into my too small bind to find clothes that would fit me. I have had some luck but I've given most of my use to be to small clothes away because I thought I would never get back into them(I was wrong) Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, this is kinda cool. I have never been in this situation before, most of the time I would out grow my clothes in a matter of months. Today I went into Burlington Coat Factory and found a skirt that I really liked, can you believe that it was a 2X. As you know I was afraid to try it on because I had the fear of it being to small like things have been in the past. I could not have been more wrong. Oh my goodness I could pull the skirt up and still have room on the sides and in the back, you could slightly see my stomach pouch but the beauty of this is that I could not go into Burlington to buy not a thing, sometimes even shoes were hard to come by. Change is coming and I'm so happy. I'm so glad I had the WLS, this time last year I wouldn't even go outside that often because I would all ways see someone I know and they would stare in disbelief. It's funny that I have discovered a confidence that I've always had but it was stored on some shelf waiting to be used.
My cousin has seen my results and have decided to have WLS as well.
I  couldn't go to the gym for 3 days now due to my low potassium (2.3) I have had really bad cramps in my legs and hands, but I have started to take supplements. 
I will be back in the gym on 5/30/09, because I'm afraid if I dont exercise I will remain fat(see I still use this word so freely even though I'm loosing weight).
This is a mental and physical journey for me, I have to tell myself that I'm good enough to do it or I can do it. I have to push myself more and more everyday. It's funny because I was on the tredmill and I had walked 30mins at a pace of 3.3to 3.5, then I started to jog after 10mins. or so my body or should I say my mind began to want me to stop but I wasnt even tired yet so I had to snap out of the old me and ask myself are you really tired or are you just being lazy, as you might of guessed I was being lazy so I jogged until my body was tired and I was short of breath. The feeling was one that I can't describe because it felt so good after I got off. I just ask that who ever is reading my blog remeber that you will have mental battles but you can defeat them just by pushing yourself and you will succeed. Peace

06/09/2009
I'm so happy!!!!! I went into Lane Bryant clothing store today, this is one of the store that I would go in and come out very disappointed because I could never fit into their clothes. Well surprise surprise I went in today and I tried on a dress and two pairs of Capri's that were a size 26 at first I went for the 28 but it was to bigthen I tried on the 26 and guess what? It fit and I still had some room. It's been 3.5 months since my surgery and I'm down from a 32(tight) going into a 24. Did I tell you how cute I looked in this dress, My husband even went for a grab on my booty.

06/16/2009
I really dont like chicken breast. Each time I try to eat this food I always get sick and it gets stuck. No matter how small of a bite I take or how many times I chew it(boy does it get dry).
I have been without my protein shake for 4 days and I dont advise anyone to try this. I'm weak and tired. I'm not one of those people that will sleep their day away but man oh man do I wanna sleep. I bet your asking why havent I had my protein? Well the truth is I ran out and have yet to get some. I bought some Muscle milk light(already made), but it's to sweet. Before I would love to have something sweet on my tongue, but now It feels as if my body has been shocked when sugar hits my tongue. I havent weighed myself because I get mad if the scale hasnt moved or goes down only one number(I weigh myself daily which is so silly). Well I'm outta here. I go to the Center on 06/30/2009 for my weigh in, I will blog as soon as I find out how much I weigh.

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