AmyLucas
Reflection
Dec 03, 2007
When you are forced to analyze every aspect of your life, you tend to gloss over the bad parts and make excuses for why you have done certain things.
Recently my husband decided he wanted a divorce. This was not something I was willing to accept but he did let me know his reasons for wanting it. I am partly to blame for all that has happened in our marriage but he has blame in it as well. I moved back to Arkansas shortly after this revelation came about. Driving for three days and not having anyone but two little boys and a cat will give you time to think over things.
I discovered a lot about my behavior with my weight loss during that time. I have made excuses, gave what I thought were valid reasons for not being able to lose the rest of my weight. It has been a year since I had my last fill and I had not lost but ten pounds. Actually to be quite honest I had gained ten pounds and took it back off a few times. I was discouraged with the band. I was considering having a revision but what good would that do me if I wasn't in the right frame of mind to lose it in the first place.
When I left for California I was at 264-268 depending on the day I weighed. I have stopped blaming other people for my failure and took responsibility for my actions. I am happy to report in that time I have now lost down to 243. I'm still getting a divorce but at least I could straighten something out with my life.
Recently my husband decided he wanted a divorce. This was not something I was willing to accept but he did let me know his reasons for wanting it. I am partly to blame for all that has happened in our marriage but he has blame in it as well. I moved back to Arkansas shortly after this revelation came about. Driving for three days and not having anyone but two little boys and a cat will give you time to think over things.
I discovered a lot about my behavior with my weight loss during that time. I have made excuses, gave what I thought were valid reasons for not being able to lose the rest of my weight. It has been a year since I had my last fill and I had not lost but ten pounds. Actually to be quite honest I had gained ten pounds and took it back off a few times. I was discouraged with the band. I was considering having a revision but what good would that do me if I wasn't in the right frame of mind to lose it in the first place.
When I left for California I was at 264-268 depending on the day I weighed. I have stopped blaming other people for my failure and took responsibility for my actions. I am happy to report in that time I have now lost down to 243. I'm still getting a divorce but at least I could straighten something out with my life.
Just Moved to California
Oct 05, 2007
I wanted to update and let everyone know I have moved to California. Since working in the office is only achieved by being in the state, I felt it was something I needed to do. 
It is a huge change from Arkansas. I had someone I had someone have me repeat what I was saying FIVE times! I'm not from a different planet, just Arkansas!
California is beautiful though. I love it here.
I am considering having a revision from the lap band to the RNY. I am going to be looking at doctors and see what I can't get done.
Till Next time,
Amy
It is a huge change from Arkansas. I had someone I had someone have me repeat what I was saying FIVE times! I'm not from a different planet, just Arkansas! California is beautiful though. I love it here.
I am considering having a revision from the lap band to the RNY. I am going to be looking at doctors and see what I can't get done.
Till Next time,
Amy
