andreasimmons
June Update
Jun 03, 2009
It was brought to my attention by someone near and dear to me that I didn't write a blog entry for May. Wow, it went by so fast. So here is my June entry. Lets see....
I am down 54 lbs as of today. I have had stalls, not sure how long they have lasted as I don't weigh everyday. I was cleaning out underneath the bed in the spare bedroom yesterday and found a scale that I forgot we had (can you tell how much I must have used it preop?) So I got on and compared it to my scale at work today (which is exact to my official scale at the gym). They were the same so now I am afraid that I will start to compulsively weigh myself now that I know there is a scale in the house. During the stalls of course I would get frustrated, but then I remind myself that I have lost all this weight basically since the middle of March. What is to get upset about?
I am really enjoying people noticing my loss. The other day I was at Meijer and one of the cashiers that I have "known" from shopping there for so long told me I was looking like I lost weight which was nice. I am very open with most people about the fact that I had surgery. I am finding that almost everyone is very supportive and also very interested in my story.
Food has lost a lot of its importance in my life. I realized this the other day when my family wanted pizza and I felt like I really didn't want any. Imagine, me not wanting pizza. I will wander through the grocery store looking for things to take in my lunch and nothing really looks good. My friend Maria said that she thinks this would be absolutely terrible. I think it is absolutely wonderful. It is so nice to have not have food be the center of my universe. When I was working nights, I would get up about 3 or 3:30 in the afternoon and walk immediately to the kitchen and eat anything I could get my hands on, all the while thinking about when I was going to eat again. I would eat pizza, and instead of enjoying the piece I was eating, I would already be reaching for the next one. It is amazing how this surgery has set me free from that. I love it!
I also love the fact that when I am walking with my co-workers back to work after lunch I don't panic when one of them suggest we take the stairs. I am no longer embarrassed by how short of breath I am by walking up a flight of stairs. I wear surgical scrubs and am down two sizes from what I wore last winter and think I it may be time to try the next smaller size which is just a plain large! I can cross my legs now too. The list goes on and on.
I have felt great all along. There have been a few instances of the foamies, and yes I have even vomited twice. I have learned what my full signal is and now I respect it. I used to think I could take another bite or two but after that intense pressure and just terrible feeling I have learned to push the food away. (something I never did before, ever. I was a card carrying member of the clean plate club!).
I love to shop at the Salvation Army and the NuWay Thrift store. I am even more excited about the wardrobe possibilities as I continue to loose weight. I go to the gym frequently, and walk whenever I can.
All in all my life is so much better and I am a happier person. I love that I have two wonderful friends that have gone through this with me and we can compare notes and share victories. The other day I was at a restaurant that refused to let me order off of the children's menu. I told them that was fine, but I would not be back, I would not bring my family back and my friend (whom I was having lunch with ) and I would find somewhere else to meet that would honor the card from my surgeon. A few minutes later that waitress was back with a children's menu in hand and said the district manager was there that day and instructed the manager to let anyone with a card from their surgeon order from the children's menu. Maybe I can change the world, maybe I can't....but I am changing myself into a much happier and healthier person and I wouldn't trade that for the world.
