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Nov 27, 2012

WELL IVE MADE IT TO MY YEAR MARK .. ACTUALLY IM A FEW DAYS OVER IT... IM NOT YET WERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE AS FAR AS MY WEIGHT LOSS BUT I HAVE BEEN FEELING A LOT BETTER MOST DAYS.. IM KINDA STRUGGLING MORE SO NOW WITH THE MENTAL PART OF THINGS. NOW THAT IM ABLE TO EAT MORE I MENTALLY AM FIGHTING MYSELF TO STAY IN CONTROL, ITS A VERY SCARY FACTOR TO STEP ON THE SCALE AND EVEN SEE A FEW .OZ DIFFERENCE IM SO SACRED OF GAINING ANY WEIGHT HOWEVER I STILL MENTALLY AM THAT FAT GIRL, WHO HAS A HARD TIME CONTROLLING WHAT SHE EATS, THAT'S ONE THING MANY PPL NEVER SEE THAT THAT THE MENTAL PART OF WEIGHT LOSS AND SURGERY NEVER LEAVES YOU I WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS BE THAT FAT GIRL INSIDE AND I HATE IT BUT IM DONG MY BEST TO TRY AND GET TO A PLACE IN MY LIFE AND MIND WERE I FEEL COMFORTABLE TO STAY IN CONTROL.

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UP'S AND DOWN'S...

Jun 02, 2012

I wish I could post that I was feeling great and things have returned to normal... but for me that has just not been the case... In and out of the hospital, tons of medications, and the overall feeling that it is taking for ever to get better... I'm now a little over 6 months out and I gotta say all though I am happy with the weight loss and I wouldn't take back doing the surgery I'm not happy with how things are going. I'm hardly able to eat, sleep, or do anything. BEING SICK ALL THE TIME IS JUST SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORING!! hoping and praying that I will get better soon and life will get back to normal... I really am struggling the most with food seems like nothing wants to go down and stay down, or it doesn't sit right... ugh I loved food before now I hate it.. well I guess that was the whole point of all of this anyway... Hopefully everyone else is having a better time and things are going well for them.

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NEW YRS NEW GOALS...

Jan 01, 2012

I'm looking at this new yr as a way to get back on track and not lose my focus on my goals... for me food it such a struggle... and Im just praying God willing that I will reach my health goals... ...and my big "25" birthday is in two weeks so Imexcited for that even though I havent decided what it is I want to do!!