2 Days before Pre Op Surgery

Jul 09, 2011

 I am sitting here realizing that in 2 days I start a very strict diet for the rest of my life I am new going to enjoy these foods and I am finding myself eating my fav foods I jumped on the scale to be acurate on this web site of my progress and was stunned to see in like 2 days I have gained 2 pounds I didint think I was really over doing it but as I sat hear eating a turkey hungrey mjan thinking oh yeah turkey potatoes and cranberrys what more could I ask for and looked down at the pound of food and knew it was too much ...I am removing most of my stomack Im almost 2 weeks till surgery date and I need to wake up and change real quick or im going to mess this up like everything else plz make me strong plz make me get off my ass and work out on the bow flex that I havent touched in 2 months whats wrong w me why dont I do what I know has to be done to live . I know my life is counting on me to change but aparently I must hate myself anyone have a clue why I am doing this why am I eating when right now I need to lose to get to my goals ?

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